Tuesday, November 22, 2005

This is my last post here and it will be long
Gotta get some skeletons outta my closet

This might sound like a bold statement but my computer does not matter to me anymore,jus another part of me that died away,friendster and games and all that nah,screw it.
i feel like talkin to people on the computer or what ever things to communicate are quite fake,no feelings,no emotions,justs words on cold screen...
Sad fact for a sad person
And so people i beg of you please never do hate somthing just for the sake of hating,that is one of the things which i hate the frickin mnost,they grumble and grumble on and on just for the sake of it and at the end of the day they never really hated the thing but just to grumble for attention.you just need a tight slap
Dont quarell with somone just for quarrels sake

My boss called me today while i was sleeping and not goin to work,he said he needed me cos he had sortage of staff and the fact that i simply did not want to work anymore in that forsaken place,you know,late nights,tiredness,insomnia,scoldings,injuries,i may sound like a quitter but its a fact man,once i don't like to work in a place i will not totally,just like the fact that i'm not goin to spend my whole life working till i grow bald and money is the only tihng i care for,unlike some people i know,i would rather shoot myself dead or jump off a building than be a slave for money,i could go around the world begging at least i would have seen things and witnessed rather than be stuck here i have a calling to be far far away

And les how in the hell could be be an idiot as to love somone that could hardly give a shit about you?,i mean that just leaves you cold and empty and afraid then you'll be blaming yourself about the what if's,and that itself courld kill you.and for the girl.....i'd just want her to be happy now,even if she dosent want to see me or bear to hear from me again.The world is just cruel

I would like to say that i have no heart to teach TKD anymore man,sorry guys,if i dissapoint you or anything,its just stupid to teach it when i myself have no qualifications whatsoever and much less to mere kids who cant understand discipline and have no intrest in learning,and i know of some bastards who use it to act big outside and use it to fight.do you think i'd like to teach them?,why dident i just stay in the tues club?,i'd be so happy training hard and fighting in tournaments and all that,REGRET

To the certain person in my area who hates me,i don't really give a damn if you do,and the fact that you want the money i'm working for and that you said my bro is better than me,fuck it,don;t make me feel sorry for myself because anger is more useful than dispair,ah.....

Somtihng is slowing dying,this sounds cliche but its quite true,i need somthing more
The fire


Ok,so thats done

Tomorrow soccer match! wish me luck to score goals!

Cya people somwhere or thurs

Yours truly,
Red monkey

Sunday, November 13, 2005

HARLOOOOO

Finally im back to blog and you know what that means...
i'm free and bored;P

So did quite a few things over the weeks
Got rich
Got broke
Rich again
Broke aagain
Bought ROCKIN jacket for prom
broke after that
work work
cut the steamed fish at work
dropped a huge bowl at work
Lectured jouniours in ELDDS
Sucessful lucture
BONDS strong
ELDDS BBQ
BEEF STEAK
now bored and goin church soon


i need more money man
have to give 100$ to her for her birthday sia,first time i'm spending alot on a girl for her birthday haha,no doubt the present will have my pictures in it hurhur sweet:)

nothing much for now

my blog is quite dead actually,only i'm talking on the tag and step;P
quite pathetic;P
lol