Hero to Zero


Yes i'm back!
So tired these few days..all because of that stupid structured lessons damn them all!
Rained in the morning,quite nice actually.
I feel that i do totally nothing in skool and get really tired of it,easily.the only thing i look foreward to is soccer after skool...why..
So a friend of mines bro in law passed today,my condolences to his family.
Goin to the wake tomorrow after our soccer match with zhan hong.
Perhaps i only need somone to hold or kiss that lips
Somone said i was cute and that my hair was nice today!WOO
hahas lame.
Thats all..
I feel sucked,and shoes from stephen will help me!
Bye.

Can you see me smiling? Maestro?


PE was fun today,we played street soccer joga bonito style! lotsa fun and we played till we were wet as hell!
Has chinese oral today,guess it was not as bad as i thought(:
Lessons after skool again..pain in my butt.
Then played foosel in the hall!,its street soccer but played in indoors which was damn fun!played till my uniform became see thru! hahas then went homee
Lookin foreward to mid-years..yes you heard it,mid years.
And also!!!
Soccer versus skool team and on fri is versus zhan hong team!WOOHOO
Gonna trash some dicks!
Or score some goals(:
Oh shit..i havent washed my boots form that muddy day..maybe it grew algae already!
Argh gotta go wash bye!

i've spent hours with that smile. stupid. i am.

Words to describe myself now could be Passive sad-case.
School was not particuarly exciting today..except for the fact that we called up singtell and pranked them!omg it was damn funny!
Structured lessons in the afternoons suck big timme,i dont understand why really..so tired and sleepy.
After that went to play some street soccer and went home to find that my two socks the soles tore.omg..
Went mors house to lepak abit then went home.
Feelin quite neglected right now..so many paths to choose no one to walk with.each of my friends have their own things or their own signifigiant others to cater to but me?,i'm there to provide entertainment?
What then are we left with,without our personalities and gifts and friends and actiosn and clothes and accessories?
Ha..then what?
Would you like me if i had no money or could not crack a joke or fail in school?,perhaps everyone wants to be popular..
Hmm... i've got nothing else to say
Is everyone's dream to have somone to talk to and hold and hug when you want to?-strange..
Okay enough emo-ness.
Found out today that i was band one in english so i'm under ms ling! for english lessons omg!
I need to sleep in the afternoon,i have the urge to!
To stop sleeping in class everday;P

I LOVE YALL!-this is for the peoples i miss or havent seen for a long time(:,(its not gayy)

Thats all folks

I walk in lightning



I'm bored so i'm blogginThe skool got struck by lightning lol good for itAll i can remember today that is i slept thru maths and then had milo for lunch then went to the structured revision thingy in the afternoon,i feel sorry for sheryl lee mann,she was struggling to teach us! two classes!Then we headed to np where we ate KFC,i tell you i'm broke now!Then went to 800 plus to lepak abit bit,then there were so many police cars!Then there were TWO riot police busses goin up and down the road,and from the mesh covering the windows i could see some ah bengs inside,poor things hahas!No joke man riot police..they got the power to do watever they want in there man,even beat you up.Tehn i walked home form there in the RAIN!Saw owen comming out from skool,what nice timing.then they told me that the skool got struckt by lightning!NiceeThen they went to makan so i went home and a fricking tree was across the path,most prob also struct by lightning,quite cool.Boring structured lessons till thrus!Holi next mon!Exam on tues!ARGHChakdengdeng!


Blogger is screwed

Life!

Simple.
What i did just now,went out with tors,had the time of my life,talked,sang,joked,disturbed.
Then on the way home i was quite sadd.

Say bye-a.

Too young to worry.

Wow!
First ting we come to skool is get a lecture by the principals and all her lackeys!
Lecture about not being lazy blabla,basically to wake the hell of us up before it was too late ah.
Lol really heliarous!
Yeah,yesterday we played street soccer!damn funny! all of us were doin this blup blup thing to each other then we took turns aiming everybody there! damn stupid and funny mann!
Lessons were so-so
My pants were goin to burst man i swear!,too tight!
"IT IS I,THE BLIND GONG FU MASTAH!"
LOL
I feel skools gonna be more funn soon...dunno why(:

Dunno why i feel that the people in the skool are acting funny..like very...ignorant...hmm just small kids i think! hahas

Goin outt!

Classic(:


The day was jus classic,tinge of lateness when comming to skool.Abit of not knowing what the chem test was all about and the sweet smell of PE.

So recess was quite dangerous,not wanting my hair to b e caught by nair hm..
Maths was refreshing.
So today i feel quite relieved not to the sense that i am oblivious to the fact that theres piles of work undone and no dae fixed yet for their completion and the fct that mid-years is lurking around the corners and the bigger devil is yet to come in november.
So i talk about people.
Some people today i feel indebted to..for their help in many things and also strength.
Girls?...one or two make my throat choke and be at a loss of words to say when i talk to them which is ofcourse not normal for me.
Things are goin up now,of course not wanting to wait for times when its down again.
On the other hand....theres always soccer versus a pasir ris team at marina bay this sat! any cheerleaders wanting to come??(:

Goin off to bugis later on and then maybe some studying

Sieze the day.

Fight!-pt 1

Today was the last day before i was to forget about this whole handphone thing and these are the events that happened.

Skool-Dont really remember what i did in skool hmm....some boring lessons that i bearly paid attention to sorry.
Skipped maths class and went to 440 to meet these people whom were supposed to fight with but they had oral and all that so talked for abit then we all agreed to come back at ard 5

Intercession-
Went causeway with my mom to get my sim card and changed my plan and got a new handphone too!
Now got 3 handphones wahaha,thenwent to eat abit of breadtalk and then it was 4 plus already and i went to meet TORs at 7/11 to finally settle .

FIGHT-pt 2
Talked to one of the fellers there,we finally admitted.
Then talked to this bastard,we talked to him nicely but he was what we call sia-lan,so my cousin was angry at him cos the others could talk nicely like men but he had to be the one to play the gangster and be so cool so they were argueing and my cousin gave him a headbutt and he bled in the mouth and cried also i think.
So he called his headman to complain but what he din know that he was on my side already cos he washed his hands on this and gave us permission to do what we wanted so then he did his own shit.
Then talked awhile more then farhan came and gave me my phone,they talked first then i came and listen talked abit more then went to talk to Farhan alone.
He apologised to me about the troble he caused and so i accepted and then it was over,the other members also apolgised to me and TOR for this trobule

So after that i couldent go to joy joy with them and so i came home and went TTSH and came back ard 10 plus.

This was today.
Don't tell me that i'm a bad-boy or a gangster cos i'm not,i'm a nice guy(:

So call me people(:

We can live like jack and sally if you want.


Question of the time
SHOULD yishun tor versus bishan 11?...i dunno gotta ask them(:
It would give us a chance to really push ourselves

So today went easter mass then went to aunty monica's house,stight away i went and aimed the wonderfull food my grandmother cooked!,i tell you....it was heaven! summor on banana leaf sia..authentic indian food LOL,i ate two mountains of it(:
wanted some beer but when i asked it was finished
So it was damn funny,i earned 11 plus dollars form blackjack or ban lak
WAHAHA
me and nigel owning everybody,together we won about 26 bucks(:
by bro lost like shit.
Took pics!
and did alot of fun stuffs like drawing easter eggs,you know what i drew?
"in the name of god please let me win"
I really thought i would win cos they were all laughing like shit but my cuz won....10 bucks...hahas
ate pizzas and all that
Alot!
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Finally went home in my uncles car and skool tomorrow..maybe it might be fun with no homework being done(:
Nights fireflies

5 Little ducks?

Ah,so continued from yesterday....

Waited for mor for about 2 hrs for him to settle his family buisness then we finally left for woodlands.
Came to xians house and it was quite big acutally,couldent makan untill 12 but then ard 3 am plus we called macdonald LOL
Played xbox and all that,drank beer and talked all our worries out and all that,of yea it was mor me arthur owen zen xian khai amrit and veron(:
stayed at his house and so fast it was 6 plus am in the morning! wow then everyone slept but i wanted to watch young and dangerous part 6 so i watched while everyone slept,nice ending!
then when they woke up it was my turn to sleep!,and woke at ard 10 and played com and makane and sang some nursary rhymesLOL
I disturbed amrit when he was sleeping LOL
mor went to orchard first to meet his then finally we left at ard 12
Actually they called me out just now to go to easter vigill untill 11 but no space in de church already hahas sadness
so ate junk food and watched tv and now i'm bored

No writings about love today sorry to dissapoint(:
5 LITTLE DUCKS!

The Day of Days.

It was a good thing i went to church in the morning,really good.
after that went to makan with family +step and eric extras! hahas no laa.
So i'm getting a phone tomorrow form my mom cos she's gonna go to causeway to get my sim card and shes giving me her samsung flip phone(:
Then i'll be in contact with the world again,hahas,its sad i really liked the peace and quiet(:
after i came home i did nothing at home but sit and watch these music shows,not that badd,i like carlos santana!
Goin to xian's house later on to celebrate his bro's bday and makan some steamboat,but i cant eat lol
Wow,tomorrow's saturday,i really thought it was sunday already.Ah well was aching form head to toe form yesterday's match,which showed that i played like hell.
Thats it
Call my house people!(:

Passing the point of no return.

Hmm what shall i say,that i dreaded waking up today morning?,that i did not get one bit of sleep last night?,or that i simply dont care anymore?

So was 90 dollar voucher was stolen today courtesy of jazmonkey,she wanted to buy click 5 cd or somthing,dont really mind laa.
Skool was passing for me just for the soccer match after that,then came to my blk under to settle my hp buisness,they dint seem to care much so now it'll be for us to handle,
Farhan you fucker,i dont care if you sold my phone or what shit,i swear to your mother that i will beat you on monday untill you cry for help that your gang memebers wont give you,you bastard.
So headach,one by one my problems are piling up,unable to settle them at all.Just feel that i need not to care anymore.
So the bitter taste of loss in today's match,i missed 4 clear cut chances..so dissapointed of myself.
in the end it was 3-1 or 2-1,i dont really give a damn,we played well.
Just dont feel very loved right now.

Dissappointment to mostly everyone.

So went to police station and the woman questioning me was quite rude and irritatable.then she asked me to come back another day with my serial no.
Went to mac then to makan and the woman there actually gave me one mcchiken and chiken fantastic when i only ordered a mc chicken meal,hah..some simpathy there,so buger went to owen.
Dunno,now i feel like i fuck everytiing i do.Don't really feel like comming skool anymore,i need a really long break away from home or skool to think,i hate everything now.
.....

Thanks for all the well wishes and help everyone





Today went skool at 10am

had some fever in the morning so decided to sleep more at home before comming to skool.
Went to skool and everybody ing the hall shouted my name;P lol was so loud!
So went to talk with mor for abit thenslowly one by one came.
So their headman had work today,nvm i'll let untill tomorrow for them to handle their inside problem,if still cannot then we'll handle it ourselves,i wont mind if i get punished for hurting one of the three people,vengence is all i ask now.

went home after skool then slept for abit cos not feeling well,then now goin police post soon with the Os to report then maybe goin to makan some food.
Got to get better tomorrow for the match against zhan hongs team,which is what we wanted to play since foreever,so i got to be well enough.Maybe to settle the hp problem with those people.
Fri's good friday,dunno what i should expect.

Maybe having no phone is quite good,like not much stress,but now i have nothing to wake me up every morning;P

Chiao

Pink flowers on dying sunset.

Are you really triyn got tell me somthing?,i really dont know,i hardly talk to you anymore or see you,not sure...please tell me,if not it would be for nothing.
Went to sean teams training today,pretty good stuff and i became a notch blacker now nice..just nice..then after that went homw to bath and change then off to jus house,but then on the way we changed our minds and went to mors house cos he was sick and did not go swimming so we went there to make him happy(:
talked alot and sang and laughed like shit then ard 6 we left for np,me to popular to finally buy the olevel eng book which i dont know what to do so i predict i'm dead tomorrow,then went to mac to makan and met steph halfway so talked with her for a while then she left,then we left(:

Sun:
Went outing with BP,me owen jaz and greg lol quite funny,took loads of pics and went ard shopping and finally to cityhall where we picked sago seeds in the night;P yes in the night with no light,it WAS hard but we picked 100 pluss for owen
I find that wearing contacts is a totall waste of time and money so in due time i'll be switching to specs again with much begging of my mom to but me a new frame!
Then i'll be free of contacts and eye infections and whatnots.

I love you,yes you reading this blog now sitting in ur chair with ur nice hair and pinkness

Dont worry..no sugar(:

The times we talked away..


So i'm not gonna blog about the whole day today,yes today is speeeh day.Had fun yea but at the same time there had to be problems propping up,eldds went great.My mom came,think alot of perople know her,then after that went to find tor and then went np with LES to talk for hours then went to jus and zen tot alk sumore then went omme.

Thats was short right?
thought so..

Are you trying to tell me somthing?,why now?why?

You'll know it when it happens-so sad..




Not much mood to blog so i'll just lay down the grim shit

Tireing day,nevertheless...after skool it was rehersals rehersals,Bla!
dont really wanna talk about that,cos then there will be ppage upon page of swearing and all that.
Went to play street soccer abit then went to makan,then after some talking i went home.
Rehersal again tomorrw
i dont wannt live anymore

Today i found out that i was a failure.

Time to let go Les-

I've seen you happy these days,so now i'll do the ultimate of letting you go.its high time and not dwelling on it will make me happier-

How do your reach the truth if lying has become a habit?How do we keep the past alive without becoming its prisoner?How do we forget it without risking its repetition in the future?How can you tell the truth if the mask you have adopted ends up being identical to your face?

so today was hmm..
Oh! i ran 2/4 today AGAIN and my timeing was 9.40s! woo beat my initial timing of 9.59s.
Witht the guidence of sean that is,owen was infront of me but then be dropped behind with i overtook him and then we walked but then i shouted at him to run again and so he did in the end sean was first me second and owen third,then went back to skool and played soccer,scored a goal and alot of tiang and misses,skill improved! faked gui and karnan alot lol.
after that went to bio then recess,om lost her wallet halfway hahas what a bird so i asked her tofind it in the toliet and it was really there!lol dont i know girls so well?
After that maths then cl,went to libaray to sleep lol whihe the others did their work then mdm parames woke me to tell me somthing,the she ended with "see sleeping!,thats why you never got an award"crap.
Then eng,got scolding by indra cos we din change into out uniform form pe,she scolded me solo before scolding the rest together,i really wonder why..i still dont know.
After that went BK to makan!,woots used my voucher to buy a really BIG MEAL! PIG.
after that went back to skool for rehersal,polished most of it up,it was raining so there was this scarf that amrit was wearing and i took it,the backstage lights were off and i wore the scarf on my head and walked ard.
Jali was goin to on the lights and i stood behind him thinking that he already saw me,but he did not!,he shouted cheebai! and wanted to punch me LOL,that was scare no.1
Then ayu was at the back and i just stood behind her and then she freaked out and was goin to cry!,after that i retired from scaring people and then acted seriously.
Good day on the whole,just tired.
Letting it go was a good chioce today,seeing her happy with another today..yea ok..
But theres one i will never ever forget.
Actually i cant wait till sat,getting two prizes then acting the.......NONO,MORNING soccer match first vs seans cousin then goin to skool,so if you see me like a fricking zombie please make me high!,hope i perform well and that ToR wins(:
Then after acting is enjoying then eating dinner in skool,i love the skools dinner!
Yea,Fri is international friendship day and i bet the day is goin to be super!,international food served at the canteen!!!!!foods like katong laksa and whatnots!!WOO!then after that is saka sushi with owen,om,vveron,mor and others,so i bet i'm gonna be fat like an arse!


Listening to country songs now,no i havent switched over,from young i grew up on these songs,i remember my uncle would make me my bro and my cousin sit down and remeber one song and then he would play the guitar and we would sing to the whole family,really it was very fun as i feel that these songs have alot of meaning and alot of life,it really means alot to me,reminds me of the old days and my uncle boy-i miss that alot.

You all say you dont know me anymore,well youre all the same,people change when they need to and i can say that for this,i had to change,so if you see me on the street and i dont look like what you want me to look like and you dont like the things i might be doin then so be it,i dont live just to please you i live for myself,dont tell me i dress badly or look like a fool cos i wont listen to you.

I dont thinks she likes me no more-


So,the day has been good to me!
And,does everyone hate a smoker?
Byee--

Self-styled bastard-Unholy confessions 1

Ah,just back from skool,ya its 9.30pm.
Just had a general feeling that i was very useless today,i din not do any of my english homework,not even maths,all of them are piling up on me,i cant understand maths at all.
Recess i saw somone happy and i nearly choked on my pain.
After skool went to rehersal shit,
I tell you i did not win any CCA prize as a matter of fact,i feel really betrayed that owen naz and greg won the fucking thing but i did not,all i did for this cca and in the end all i get is what?of course i'm human i'll feel cheated especially when i feel that i deserved it more than greg or naz,really do,me and owen planned last year that we both would do it together.Fuck the drama.
Another thing,I found out that i'm not top student anymore even tho i am the top student,frans is now top,i dont blame her but what the fuck?!does the principal and vp not like me or is it my fucking attitude or how i look?,i tell you i will NEVER be one of ur fucking model nerd ass students for you to show around.So thats why i felt really cheated today but well fuck it,its already happened so why do i care anymore?
Din feel like doin a proper run so i switched off my mike in my scene cos i dint feel like doin it properly,Then after that the last run i did it ok.
Din wanna complain to any teachers about that,free service right?

After that,i got the hell outta there and went to 761 and played abit of soccer.
Another thing is that money for the whole month suddenly became on 5 dollars,dunno how the hell it got that way today is only the 4th,how the hell could i possibly spend more than 50 dollars in four fricking days!somthings goin on there.Haiz

I read in somones blog that they look at the stars on their way home,and i suddenly remember that i do do that alot but i just look at the moon alot and then the stars,it seems to relax me,like the moon's sucking away all your trouble,while sitting down and having a nice drink.
Sad to say that now i find that some girls have motives to what their do to you,like if they want to just play around with you for a while or they want your money or attention or they want you to do somthing for them like you owe them the world,there are many more motives but i wont say anymore.Feel quite sick of this its like every one of them dont seem like real human beings
Traumatized*

Sumarry
-Felt cheated like fuck today
-Heart pain
-Luckily no ass pain by ron
-tired to death
-overall it was just a shitty day

Oh i joined the Hong xin gang today under liu lol we are against the other pig gang LOL
Thats it.

For You.

I came into skool and.was tired like hell,in biolesson i slept for one period but strangely woke up with he started teaching about the reproduction,dont call me a pervert but seeing the class and mostly the girls reacting to him was nice,and also ron was there so it was surely funny,leason was over and i havent done a comphre and 2 summaries for eng so i surely thought i was goin to die there,but i did not,indra was in a nice mood today(:
So as i slacked thru everything,i thought about the previous day's happenings and what sad shit i felt.
The skool wanted to take our pics for the skools mag so it was a perfect chance for me to skip maths lesson(:
Quite stupid posing here and there,felt quite lame but it was fun with greg fran and yochin.
So by end of skool i had totaly no mood to go for the stupid rehersalshit and also din talk much or anything then,then came back to calass to find them but thery were already gone so luihui followed me to the canteen to buy things then saw zen,said he wanted to whack somone in 4A,so i just followed,would be fun to see those express stuck up dicks get scared,so we called em out,blablabla,his face said he was scared(:
XXX
din get to see somone i wanted to afta skool,so i went to class but jaz asked me to buy her some thingiis but i was not goin out already so i asked mor to buy but he bought the totally wrong thing LOL Sorry(:
Played some game in FA enrichment,i won 5 dollars voucher for BK!
Then went with veron to np to find xiian while the others would come laters,ate some koran food then went over to 761 there to talk for abit about some stuffs with zena ns luihui.then reached home at 9.
Some say that all the people in busses or Mrts look dead and expressionless but for me i tihnk that taking a long bus ride or mrt ride is really very good for reflecting on the days happenings VERY GOOD,took a LOOONG ride home.
I've decided i woont do much,i'll just wait with memories
XXX
MAkan
Ps:Cookies i know who you are wahah(:

My S&K bag.*

Went to bugis with zen veron xian and athur after church,slacked ard for a bit then went to kathib to pick veron then the rest came and so we headed there
Mood:Extreme happy

So the train ride was quite fast and we reached and found them in a sec,talked and talked then walked ard bugis cos their performance was not yet to begin,veron bought an s&k bag,wanted to buy a camo cap but couldent be found,then went back for their performance.
Chris and greg were already there.
Their performance was,really great man,except for some probs bt ron and ade but it was very good!

Then after that i was really confusedd,kept asking myself alot of questions.
Mood:fucked
i had no heart to do anything kept thinking and thinking,ah i don't know..
Slept thru the bus ride,i was too tired.
bought milkshake in np then went ard with owen and greg then went on the bus then had a walk home.
thats all
quite torn.

Swirls of milo foam

wOw
Jus back from khais house,went there last night to ton.
Met them at ard 9 plus at 123 then watched abit of chelsea and birmingham,0-0.Then went the temple for abit play cards and wait for then to finish their stuff then went to 123 again to makan and this time got ManUmatch against bolton2-1
Ate then went to meet mor then go to khais house,on the way there singing stupid indian songs damn loud hahas!.
Then reach already he din let us in so we sat at the staircase even tho he called us in already hahas.
Oh yea yesterday was april fools day,they tired to trick me saying that sean broke his wrist or some shit,hah!
Apriels fool has become quite boring,last time i remember we used to do some elaborate pranks on some idiots!
So i played his ps2 while they were playing 02jam,stupid game GTA
Then after that seaching the web for some ghost vids or any shit that can scare us lol,then before that we went to mac to buy some food before we got ourselves scared.wanted to makan at viod deck but then got police so we went to the staircase landing to eat lol,like illigal people!
So went back and then surfed SPI then API then sfogs lol lame,trying to find ghost stories about Northbrooks,northview,yishun park blabla.most of the stories are totall bullshit but then not badd la,so we offed the com finally then tried to scare ourselves to hell,the mor crawled behind the bed then took my hp and oned the light then fricking scared me to death!
More and more scary shit was happening,i tried to scare then but then gave up cos the obvious winner was the bloody mor,always up to some shit.
Then slowly kai slept then the topic changed to girls then we talked and talked then talked about girlfirends and love and all that,then after that to having sex and babies then teaching sons how to fight and daughters how to cook and get married then also tor beating all the gangs in singaporeLOL!!
Alot of bullshit happened there laa
We talked untill the sun came up then i slept for about half an hour then went home cos i gotta get goin to church now(:
Maybe goin out laters to see some cheer performance or somthing,Maybe.
Skool tomorrow!
Bye ghosts!