Florescent Adolescent

l: Oh yes!,i'm spurred to blog again!

Since today is the last day of the month,its only appropriate to sum it all up!.
For me its been quite a month of growing up actually,to let go,to learn fast and most of all quite an emotional 0ne to say the least.
So the stuff i need to accomplish in the next month are to get a job firstly and slave for some moolah.Next is to get a Honda SP for my riding pleasure after i complete my motorbike exams.

I think this month may is really a one for letting go,for change.Friends move off to their different lives getting all nostalgic everytime we meet up(which is quite frequently)we begin to talk and talk for hours about the old times and gossip about old problems or teachers!
Well,cheers to friends new and old!but most of all to family,the most important thing in life.

Yea today my plans failed!my cousin was goin to take me to this tattoo shop which he reccomends.well my pay did not come in today so i'll be waiting!
Chicago(:

The drop dead dream.

So blogger does not wanna make my words unbolded,its okay;P

Yea we went down to PHS today as Mrs Chia would call it lending "Moral support",it was alright that they got COP for the syf,well the ones bummed out would be those graduating girls,yes just because Drama just started in their school and they would be graduating next year.I'm sure they will clinch a gold in 2 years time,yes,their that good.
As for our good ole NBSS,they got a bronzie,heh.Nocomment!
Alot is on stake later,chelsea vs liver
if i win i get ard 80 bucks,so please please chelsea win!!
Thats all folks

The (after)life of the party.
Yea,the feeling you get after a really good time,the one where you wised time ourld have just slowed down for those spare moments so that you could fully savour the memories and the full-fledged fun.I'd sell my soul for that.
Yea i'm gonna get a job soon,and then i'll be making big moolah.
So i'm goin in this july or whatever.My uncle recently came round and the first thing he did was show us his tattoo made-in-austraila.yea it was wonderfull.
Sea as my grave
Shark as my coffin.
it was quite a big back piece and i asked him to check out mine heh and he asked me to extend it to my whole arm then come to talk to him lawl.
Went to my Aunts house last sat for a cousin's 13th birthday and they were supportive and i listened to my uncles advices about the army right till the part where they said the length of your balls mattered if you were goin into pes A or B.Thats the part were i exited myself for a beer heh.
Sunday was bowling day with the guys,a girl and a um another girl! heh.what surprised me was that i din go to church that day,that was a first in a long long time.
well,thats about it.
so,
who wants to shave my head?
alright,chicago.

Infinity.
Oh,
How it was wonderful to act again,the tense backstage atmosphere,the incredible rehersals,the bonds made and lastly the high that you experience at the finale.
Our show was a success contradictory to the fact that we only had 2 solid rehersals!.
All thanks to Alvin,after all these years he's still a great guy,ans oh yes how successful he will become in the future.
It's the highlight my my month.
So my worst fear has just materialised,is that i have to go away for 2 years.Yes so much for being a good student and haveing so many awards and accolades.So what if they say i have a smart brain?The fact that i am still going away just because of a slip that CMPB could'ent explain.
Just last wednesday i thought my life was on track again when the news hit me.well it okay cos i don'tfeel much of it anyway,i've been hit since the start of the year.
My good friend said he'd break down if he were me and that he'd hope he could be as strong as me.I myself don't know why i'm strong.Is not feeling called being strong?
My god left me.
Well,i'll know for a fact that i'll be getting my dip the same time as them and that i'll be working while their in the army.Neyhaa
I've given myself 3 mths to get my liscence.
Apart from these i still have fears.I fear and therefore i am scared.
Well,
The show must go on.

The Great Loser.
Yea just came back from rehersals and i found out that my skool needs my deferment letter and stuff.So i called CMPB and they said that i'm only able to defer when i'm under 18 and accepted into a fulltime course,so now that i'm 18 they said its hard to defer which i don't know what the problem is and only know that the end result is that i'd have to enter ns.
i think i won't be able to sleep tonight untill i go to CMPB tomrrow with my letter from my skool.
A part of me feels like just goin into ns and dissapearing for 2 and whatever years so i won't be a burden for my parents or anyone.Why din't the bitch poly's accept me when they bloody well accepted fuckers with 30 odd pts mann.That pisses me off till today and it will till i dunno when.
Stress i tell you,stress that makes me wanna pick up the pack again.
Ah fuck it.
I need to go to church,i need peace.i need strength.

Yesah!
So's i think i'm gonna be late for rehersals but it's all good.
Been goin to PBHSS for rehersals and trainings,at first to train those buggers but now its our turn to perform this saturday to a ticketed concert!,only my second in all my years!,its $10 bucks a tick,some kind of showcase of the schools new drama club and we're just there for the help(:
Yesterday was cool went down and alvin and mingy and all were there but we changed the script by greg to a new one that should be okay by today!.

Yes of course i'm bummed that everyone's goin their own ways and just disappointed that i went mine.yes there's something that i'm very angry about.
Yes next mon i will be starting school,i don't know what to expect and who i'd meet or if i'd even have friends!.Its like the first day of sec school all over mann.

Yes i haven't started taking my motorbike pracs yet,because that damn MOR is too busy to bring me;P,i swear i'll overtake em!,so i'm nervous about that too,hope to pass asap!.

Yea,saturday's gonna be packed day mann,showtime about 7 plus but before that intentive rehersals and stuff and then after that its for us to hit FLUID BAR,i swear that they will never make me drink;P

Well this is our lives,it has to go on...right?
chiaos(:

Haappy Easter!
Yup easter time!
I'm damn sick now but what the hell,yesterday stayed at aunty valencia's house witht hat ass nigel and we ended up talked ghost stories till 4!,i swear i scared her mann!
Before that was GOOD FRIDAY,we had some kind of celbration thingy at granma's then aunties houses WITH only vegetarian foods:)
Oh yea,our chalet was a blast!
just ask me
kay kay,gotta meet owen at J8 soon,and then to aunt's house again.
(:

Love is...

So i'm compelled to blog again because partly of my need to write,or in this case type things down.Went to Jurong to suppor a friend whose joining Annugerah,lawl i pity them,it was raining torrents.after so on we went to watch Meet the robinsons which i feel totally unjustified for because i bought for all of them drinks and stuff.Mostly after that it was walking around and i noticed one thing,i've not looked at people in a long time.Thank goodness tomorrow is my last day working.I've felt really dead when goin to work and realized that somehow it sucks the life out of you and you dont have time for anything,you don't notice things like you did before,in a sense,you are numbed to the world around you.
I've been pulled outta there because yesterday i went to PHS and it opened up an old feeling i had inside of me,which is acting.
they wanted to see what we were capable of so alvin and mrs chia proposed we do an impromtu skit,and OMG how it all flowed together!My feelings were excited and those memories of sec 1 just came back mann,looking at these lower sec eldds kids really made me feel happy and sad.
Acting,came so naturally to me again,and those kids spoke a different english than what i hear around me so i reverted back to proper english quite easily complete with chim words;P.
Yes i won't be going to a poly but that wont stop me from getting the dip i want.
Yes i hate it that people who did worse than me are in a polytechnic,i really hate that,but its useless to hate what i can't attain anymore but cherish what i can MORE than them.

Oh,i got my birthday party pics,they are crazey!
and i want the sentosa pics too!,that veron..
Crazy week its been.

And so to end off...
Love is the essence of life