Hi old Friend.

Long times different people many situations what a feeling
i have nothing to say about you anymore
or you.
i've waited too long,
O levels to study and to score(hopefully)
i'm lazy and i want sleep
I wont blog much already,you'll have to wait(:
so again i'll love you but you'll never know.

Bangala Bangala oi oi!


Work.
We worked like dogs.
Our work at payaLebar airbase was not was we expected one thurs and fri.
Fun labour work,escaping and relaxing to watch the jets and helicopters.
Then Friday sat and sun we had to report to work at 5.45am but there was no but from my house at that time so i had to wake up at fricking 4 plus am to take a cab of about 10 bucks to kathib to take the transport,we were only late once hahas.
Satruday was hell mann,i tell you these fricking singaporean don't know how to eat properly~!
I mean,their supposed to dispose their plates themselves in one of the many many bins in the hanger and there they are asking us to clean up for them!THEY TREAT IT LIKE A KOPITIAM!
Alas there were some nice guys but also motherfuckers who scold you when you cllean for then for complain for everything,i dont care i just scold their asses,They really got it from us mann.
You see..Who eats and then places the tray with with under the fucking table? or on the floor,nonetheless with the fucking bin beside their table?dumb right?
So our 14 hour job was to clean up after them,it was neverending with people going to the extent of blocking up and sitting on the floors to standing and eating mann,children vomit here and there and bab table manners.
Do you eat finish and then cover up the food witht he table plastic after that and throw it on the floor?then what are the next people gonna eat on,wood?
Lawl very funny laa.
I really learned and benefitted from this experience.
Like laulau said,we were chosen to experience this so next time we can spread this experience to our friends.
We really were like the foriegn workers clearing up for everybody,maybe even worse.
Although the experience was bittersweet,we meeting different military people at the smokers corner and just chatting with them,total strangers you know,and suddenly we all were talking like we know each other for ages these RSAF and field medic people hahas,amazing the smokers corner.
Next was the glorious food mann!,we were working there so the food was ours!,from fish and chips to everysingle drink know to man,icekachang,malany,indian,western,chinese and the BROWNIES!
The airshows were all ours to view when the poeple finally leave so we made full use of it,goin intothe planes to explore and take loads of pics and all that.
I will really miss that place.
As by the time work was over we each had a bottle of beer(ok,big bottle) in our hands and all were chatting non stop about what the hell happened.then finally goin home(:
I will really treasure this experience.
Bangala OI!

False Hopes and Expectations

False hopes,maybe that just what you giving me,everytime i see the true fact of you.I'll cry with you.
You could be the one intented,living my life unintented.
False hopes laa,how?!
Maybe i'll just help you in your pain,lift you.
and then its back to feeling useless.

English prelims were not too badd,i could not understand what i was writing during compo,so die.
Then it was DnT all the wayy till 9 pm with mor kai,finally went to bind the foilo at 9 plus and handed to kai to hand up for us tomorrow.
Still no one called or msged.
Home,went down for food.
Sleep.Oh,i havent had sleep since july.
still i can't sleep,i think about the false hopes too much.

Unintended.

Suck,it just sucks.
It sucks cos we din win anything at the tournament yesterday because of me.
Fuck myself for not being able to do anything laa!
It sucks that people who arn't as good as me can have all the better things.
It sucks that you moved away
Just so demoralized this whole week for reasons which are really very true.i don't know why i can't do things any better.

Went to Clair Yeo's piano performance yesterday,courtesy of Mr Mak,She was great mann,at only 14 she played Mozart,Beethoven,shumann and some other guyy.The music was really great.I think i enjoyed Beethoven the most,the music showed what he was feeling,unrestful,uneasy,anger,sadness,joy.
The music was great ok.I could relate to it,funny how music could touch somone like that.The others said it was boring so ;P.
Went home ard 2am plus.
woke at 7 again for training today,i tel you,i really am so tired now,my whole body aches and my mind is just not here.
Why couldent i score any yesterday,i missed 3 chancesfuck laa.
I know your all blaming me.Sorry.
Ah forget it,i'm gonna go try drown al my sorrows.

What are your Relationships like?

Its no use being angry,i know that now.
Even when my english is getting worse than everyone and i don't even know whyy.
Or even when somone argues with me over some stupid matter.
Much less to the teacher who wants to cut my hair or the sec 4's who always talk bad about us behind our backs.
I'm really leaning not to get angry and i tihnk i've lernt alot in this week.
I really feel that,after five years in this school and 5 years together,now is the time where i really see my friends for who they really are.The way they get angry over a simple matter or just their nitty gritty attitudes which show their ugly face to you,perhaps all these years they've just been putting on a mask to hide it or those 4 years were "play time" compaired to this crucial year.
Today-friday,i've learned that even tho others can hate or dislike somone and bitch about them to you,you can't really do the same with them,then maybe you'll be greeted with some harsh words from them.I felt so useless,i really did.
I'll keep my mouth shut and do next weeks prelims and then work during the week end.
Mor said somthing that was really very true,Tor-last time we were damn close,but now seems like each have left to accompany their girls.Slowly mor,thur,ow,soontobe mae,all goin away.
Haiya its quite sadd ok.
Guess that it would happen sometime or another,them goin with their girls.Leaving behind..
-I pushed them away for some time all because off one person that now has left me a sour taste in my mouth,then when i start seeing them,they're no more there.So i've also learned to never linger on one person,in a sense,others will go.
-Tomorrows my zone 8 match at my field,quite calm now but i'll be damn freeked tomorrow,hope i play hard,don't worry i won't let yall down!

Damn why can't i write compos like my blog entry:P

Faded starr ink

Oner comment first,My hair absolutely fastically sucks big time,thanks to our discipline headmistress,its soup bowl style lawl.when she said she wanted to cut i surpriseingly din defend myself any way,just watched the hair fall down lawl.
These few days.wow.one word only hectic.The days seem to really pass very fast,i only remember monday.
All the problems the talks between ourclassmates seem to have an impact cos today i felt that we really were a class again without bitchings and distrust,compaired to tthe fact that some have refered to ours as the perfect class cos we always look united,but there are cracks tho.
So alls well in 5A i think.
Trying really hard not to be sick now cos i really need to concentrate on getting DNT done tomorrow and foilo too.
Even tho i was sick i was stubborn and played some soccer.I can see whyy mor likes cutting people now,its so addictive!.Gotta be fit for saturday's zone 8 match which only me sean and zen playin in.Scary stuff mann division one players and all.
Next thrus to sun gonna go work at some airbase for some extra cash,i know..mad.
Umm what more.
Think thats enough for an update yea?not gonna be bloggin alot ready.

-Do yuo love to be love or love to love?
i see somone so special there hahas,maybe i'll just wait and see(:

I clicked blogger two times but both times i closed the page because,come to think i it i really dont know whyy.
What am i tihnking now,i'm thinking about my primary school days.how sadd.
Also trying not to be so angry now,i really am trying.
-Deny me for its whats best

Faded Starrs

The opening of our Schools Project cabin was abit too made up and very short.
Me mor and owen were doin some ushering at the staircase,quite funn doin cos we could disturb those kids form other schools but ushering those high class peoples were quite funn.Disappointed cos everyone wanted to go home early cos usually things like theese we will stay till late:(
Owen went movie and so i went home to be sentenced to being bored.Slept abit and then worke to buy dinner and saw greg and others from the bus,huh..people go out and dont call me anymore,thats sadd.
Continued later..

Can i?


So i found out that i dont like the majority of sec 3s except for some,very mean right?
English vendor was great today,learned heap loads.Maths 5 periods...the sub teacher looked like a bollywood star and he was areal gentleman and fit.great,but he said i was the bollywood star lawl.
Did some Dnt after skool,so relax but fricking tired mann,nah i like the teacher.
The concert happening this sat is so gonna fail mann,nothing excites me;P
What else..
Oh mom says Pheonix tattoo is good which is good.lawl
What else..
i love sec 5's?

What use for a title?

If useless were a feeling than i would be that times 10.
Possibly can't do my english homework now,fricking compo that i could so easily do and i can't bring myself to do it.shit.
I keep thinking you know,what if i did this and that differently,then maybe the ending would be the one i want alot.
I wake up in the night and think.how can i change everything,can i change people,Can i change that somone?.
oh.Fireworks were great on sat,we saw Mrs Yee and her family there,we helped to carry her kids so they could see hahas,so cute.
Did the fireworks have heart shapes in it or am i lovesick?
Came home ard 12 which was good cos i told my mom i was goin to woodlands libarary,they din tell me they planned to go to esplanade and when i met them,i asked them why the hell they were dressed so nicely and i was wearing crap.
Before that went to some dance thingy.I still don't know whyy all the gays and the dancers and the hip hoppers and the rockers come from malays.What happend to the others?

Nothing worse than somone fadding from me.:(

I wanna click you!

just back from watchin click!,was a great movie with a great storyline..actually quite stupid cos it was all a dream lawl.
So the moral of the show is that family comes first yea.
Jaz was idoit blamin me for not bringing a spoon,who brings a spoon out mann?
Went home after that cos they were all meeting at pop then goin home so went home with two of them.
Still not sure if i can go to perth at end of year,i think i got to concentrate on studies still.aftr this national day its no more enjoyin time i think.
So again i feel betrayed.Then again not.
How can Somone love you if you dont know they love me right? Thats what they say(:

Somtimes i wish

ITS TOTALLY OK THAT I FEEL LIKE A TOTAL LOSER BASTARD LONEY IDIOT WITH THAT IS PRACTICALLY USELESS IN SEEING WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANT AND NOT LOSE ALL THE FUCKING CHANCES I HAVE
IF I CANNOT FEEL THAT WAY THEN I DONT KNOW WHAT FUCKING LIFE THIS IS.

Colourless

Seems that i'm partying 24/7 now.
Went CMPB on friday in the morning so i din go to skool,so we went to differ NS and mor went for his army medical checkup,He told us everything about the check up,frickin hilarious!
So after that went to meet xian at th national libaray at bugis,co we were waiting for veron to finish her tuition.We sat at that place for like hours and talked and talked,wel they talked laa but i just listened.
Found out from veron that indra CANCELLED MY SIGNATURE ON MY YELLOW CHAIR AND WROTE SOMTHNG HERSELF!
Talk about teacher vandal hahas.Nvm i can get a new yllow chair,but mine was the only in class;P
After that we wnt home,forgot how already...hmm.
Then went 700plus to slack abit then they asked if i wanted to watch a manu match,so i was anything but they said one person had to bring one bottle;P
Huii also came,so we watched and huii slept afer first half!
Then next was me then kai.too tired!
Then morning went home to sleep for a miserable 2 hours and then went out again for guys day out taking pictures!
Funny stuff mann,us like 15 plus people then taking pics at manderin,cityhall,esplanade,mrt,orchard.Walked and ate and then owen called and said there was fireworks festival at esplanade so we pcked foodthere and went.
SUPER PACKED THERE!,we tried to make it across the bridge to meet two os but then got caught by the stupid police LOL
So we jumped on the highway and went to the underpass and blabla reached merlion finally.
KL carried me on his shoulders all the time and the view was great cos i was the highest there.
Took 8 vids of the show.simply great.
Toow more pics at merlion and then headed to mrt after an hour or so of sittin beside the water.

You make yourself busy to forget?isent it?

Arts fest tomorrow and nationalday soon.why the days so packed with thiungs to do!
STUDY!
How to get the studying mood,i dunno.

Wth ensuement of tattos and dyed hairs and shopping and overseas trips after O's,whats not to be excited!

Shit i sound so pathetic;P

Chasing Cars

I thought we could do it.Maybe it was all just shit.Seeing us loose and then catch up only to be beaten can only lead to sadnness.
After the match seeing zk sitting on the field alone really made me water.Ya we lost today but you wouldent give two shits about it but i care,Alot.
Couldent do it ment only disappointing myslef and then feeling useless and maybe that does not mean only for soccer.
What disappointments i had in the last few weeks.
Fuck.Drinks again this satday people.Photos and poses.

Live:Feel:Life:Death

Had a super badd week,went drinkin over at CH place on sat night.I slept over cos i had alot and had a really funny but so long dream but i slept so early!compaired to them,guess that showed how fucked up i was,so my dream was really funny and in the end of it i sacrificed my live for my friendds,yea i died.
ITS OK TO FEEL THAT YOU"VE DISSAPOINTED YOURSELF.
ITS OKAY TO INSULT YOURSELF AND NOT LOOK LIKE ONE OF THOSE EMO DICKS.
Last weeks soccer was hell and that added up to my shitty weekend.So useless.
Two bottles of heineken for me was never enough tho but what a night.

Packed month after exams which make me wanna work harder.
FIRST
-Perth trip by skool
-Grad night
-Class chalet
-TOR chalet
Just some of it to name.

Bye.

Only Wanted when Needed

So after playing soccer in the morning my ankle was really bothering me but i diden't mind it throughout the day.Overall they said that WE we quiet today in class and all that,yea and they were the ones doing the shooting at me hahas.How mean can these girls be lawl owen said.
We watched the parade after lessons at 5 plus and thought back at those 4 years where we never ever got a chance to sit back and relax to let the show go by but today while seeing it i was thinking about the past parades where the marching where stronger and the people were alot more familar.i guess it just that we're old and dont know anyone anymore hahas.Ah ok enough of this thingy.
So i was walking the in heavy heavy rain goin home and my pain in my ankle became fricking pain and so was my knee on the same damn leg,so now its bandaged.And my mom says that my legs gonna break at tomorrrow's match in skool,i hope that was a joke;P

Luck

I inflict pain on myself because i feel F***** up


What a week so far,lessons have been flying and time is running out for us.
I just trying to suck all the secondary schoolness whenever i can and inthe process scold some irritating bastard sec 4's today.
Very "Enlighting" day as what mrs Indra said hahas.
tomorrow is soccer day,the only day we get to play soccer so i'm gonna enjoy it,and theres also DNT to be done.
i dunno why but...
I LOVE SKOOL!

Torn

Went to owen tanny's house today and watched 3 good men,good hokkien show mann very funny and strangely i unstood what they were saying lol.
No i did not go out with any girls or what yesterday but yall din believe me you dicks hahas,whyy? cos i din go out with yall? or with owen and the rest?.Damn funny mann they realli would not believe me.
Tomorrow's skool again and like what Tanny msged me just only,START REVISION NOW.
Thats what he said and so i reply "Yes boss"
hahas nights(:

Can We Last?



Huhu!
So it was racial harmony day today and so it was planned that i met owen tanny.
First he was late and that ment that i was late too so nvm that.Then! he saw me and went "eh,style ah your clothes..i feel like goin home change"and then that was itt!,we took a cab to his house,oh! and before that my mom called me back up to change shoes cos i was wearing my bros ones without perimssion;P.
so waited for owen then took a cab back to skool which was a total rip-off of 4 bucks!.
so both of us strolled into the hall and everyone stared at us cos we were fking late and we just dident care.But then nair came up to us and talked to us,in the end we just got an excuse slip,shes so kind(:.and also the principal told us our costumes were nicee.
So camera-Whoring was a must today and i really think i'm in every picture takin in the class,ok not all.
it was really funn.
Yea and the part jaz and rose made funn of my portugese and called me a srilankan and bangladesh:( toot them lol
Nothing much after,went np to makan and all that then went home.
no complaints about today(:

Maria,maria

A day ago was Ms Nelle Engs birthday,so around 1 plus she called us and you know you could see all the excitement in everyone's face when she called,all fighting for the phone there.Yea they talked for a long while from the canteen to class untill lessons after lunch started.They only thing i remember about talking to her was that i made her laugh stright away but after that i could'ent really talk cos people were like imaptient so i just gave it up to em.I was thinking in class that while everyone was literally crowding around the phone,i came out of the group and just sat on the window ledge staring at them as they sang happy birthday super loudly,also feeling sad as this person was te only one that really cared enough to do things for us,so as i was sipping my bandong and thinking they came over and crowded me again lol.
I think it would be really great in her shoes.
Thats all i wanna highlight today laa,cos skool was really vexing for me,some teachers really can bring your mood down mann.

Karate lesson tomorrow! lol!

3 Years From Now

if somone said three years from now,you'd be long gone.would you believe it?
Just how long do your friends last?,yes i still see my primary skool friends here and there and also have my kindergarten friend of 10 years still with me.The others?maybe they'd just fade into nonexistance once your presence is not there anymore and when you se them on the street one day you think to yourself "do i recognise that person,somthing tells me i do" or "why the hell is this pervert smiling at me".
Yes i thought of this many many times before and even once somone i swear i did not even know shouted out my name and asked me how i was no,she was not ugly but actually very beauiful.
So where do we draw the line?
I guess i'll just have to see for myself the answer to this questions,3 years from now.
Ah forget it.

So i went to east coast yesterday with whole whole family and got a tattoo.
Kayaking,drinking,singing,all for the michelin goin to aussie.so sad!

Dissapear.


S it was careree day today,however you spell it,i finally did wear somthing nice curtesy of tan.
Alot of things happened today,very Sexy skoolmates(lol!),very disturbing people,Ez link card lost and found:p and really some interesting talks but the interesting part soon went away after sitting from 8 to 3pm and listening to these boring old people,so thats where the part of entertaining ourselves came in hahas.
Overall not too badd,but i felt there was somthing missing in today,a whole lot missing.
Tor din come today hahas,i was the only one that came for us.
Supposed to go meet them in chong pang to get my contacts and maybe shoes but i think its abit too late and i'm abit tired.
First time 5B fellers came to me to ask me to help them buy ciggerattes LOL,first time i like talked to them normaly,it was a nice surprise for me laa.
Ate with sean rona and others and then walked back unsatisfied home.
Oh and did i mention i was bullied alot today?
Yea okay bye.

Close the damn door.


Theres morning run tomorrow morning!so maybe that'll be funn.
So today passed by rather fast,actually i think i realy did whatever i wanted in class,ate infront of teachers walked around in class during lessons,voulenteered to tie girls hairs during lesson LOL!.
Owen too! we love singing during lesso0ns,simply annoys the teachers or best yet they'll say we are too stressed hahas.so funny/

Hmm,not sure if what i think is actually happenin,if it is then i want to tell her sorry.i am blind yes i amm,i really need clear signs.Alots of tension today in class,because of what happened yesterday during soccer.Its really sadd laa 5 years of friendship..i'm really sad.

Nevermind.
I'll remember everything you said.

Black Sheep

I really dont feel like blogging but i got lots to say actually.
School is more and more of a headach everysingle day.
About today's match,i was so disappointed and really heart broken,how could you brothers just break your friendship like this?over what? a fucked up comment and a foul?.Why laa,i'm just so sadd.
The RC guy was a really nice guyy afterall.
5 periods of maths can be really funn if you actually DO the work.
How?
I really need some help.
And for goodness sake! my face is not white and i dont put powder on it,thats just sick!
Its called aura(:

100%


Hmm,i thought i had alot to blog when i clicked on this page.Once i think i about it,i really just don wanna write down my thoughts and whatnots here,maybe the novelty of blogging is wearing off.
Supposed to be at that Hong's house with all of them watching the finals but i guess now i'm stuck at home with no intrest of watching the finals at all.Its not that i can't go but.
I really dont like what i'm feeling these past few days,so confusin.
Or
Could be the result of watching a Taiwanese love serial the whole of the week :P

A pirate

Stop lying to yourself and go on les,what are you trying to prove with these dreams of whatnots.
Runnining in a maze built for Alice in wonderland and chasing a white hamster down a drain.
Stop confusing yourself and go on,live on.

'Sides,thers plenty more treasure out there.

Missing number


I see other having different lives,really different than when i knew them and when i see that i really am envious.
Being stuck is really pathetic.
Its not the money or the freedom,that i CAN have but its the oppotunity and people to do it.
What is this.
nah,you just realize that people really can do alot better without you,maybe better than when they were with ya.
what is this thing.\

Buttons


Wow,this ghostwhisperer show is really good stuff really!,apart from the sad cory parts.
So i din go to skool today,who cares,i gotta mc finally cos i went to the doctor the previous night.
I tell you the clinic was like hell so many people and it was like so clustrophobic,i really couldet wait to go.so,when it was time to leave i wanted to run home cos i really felt nausea and all that,but so i puked my ass off near my house drain,what the hell mann!,Sadistic people would really love puking right?.
Today is laulau's birthday,finally the idots birthday and i dont feel well enough to beat em up.
Went to Taste of Thailand for dinner with the 16 of us,i really had alot of funn even tho i couldent taste the food and drinks and had a headache.
But then they were goin to a chalet to drink and enjoy and strip polker but i could not go laa,omg if i were well...
Nvm next chance is next friday in mike's chalet,Somesortta last enjoyment thingy i think.I'm so gonna make all those assholes drunk and puke everywhere and i'm gonna have a good night sleep.whaha!
Ahks till next time
Oh,i love Pussycatdolls!

Buttons


Wow,this ghostwhisperer show is really good stuff really!,apart from the sad cory parts.
So i din go to skool today,who cares,i gotta mc finally cos i went to the doctor the previous night.
I tell you the clinic was like hell so many people and it was like so clustrophobic,i really couldet wait to go.

Paul Onehill!

I dont really think i can blog noww,my room fills really hott and cramped and hot and crowded right now.or maybe my head can explode.
Goin shop just now was like walking into hell.
Saw TKD,miss that.
Din go to skool today,most of the day i just slept and lied ard.really dont wanna go to skooll tomorrow.
Singapore idol looks happening.
what summor...
oh yea i feel so sick;P

I need
-New belt
-New shoes
-Buckle
-Tattoo on my wrist
-somone with wings

Ambigious


I really really did not wanna go to skoool today.Whole body was tired and my throat was like numb.
At first the morning was like damn gloomy but then people cheered my ass up and all that so i was ok for the rest of the day,and wow! 5 periods of MATHS!,be surprised cos i did the work mann.
Tomorrow i'm not commin to skool cos Mrs yee and mdm nair came to class today and caught my hair,like what the fuck is wrong with it?theres so many people in skool with hair longer than mine so whyy the fuck do you have to catch mine?Stupid jealous bastards must have complained to them,motherfuckers.
So i'm not goin to skool tomorrow cos even if i did i would be sent home so what the flow.
Gonna watch the match at 3 am which is germany and italy!
I'm hopeing germany would get their asses outta the world cup.
Now that brazil lost and i lost 5 bucks.
I tell you,Brazil was bought laa,you see in the dying minuits of the game the fricking keeper should have kept on pumping the ball up for the strikers and not to the defenders to fricking pass it ard in their own half!
Then that Ze Roberto still hadd time to go and talk to the ref and all that! what the cow!
Sadd laa but i really think Brazil was bought for the match,Fuck.

Oh!good news tho,this parliment people liked our SYF script or somthing and they want us to perform 19 shows or somthing and we'll be PAID!,So cool mann.
That if the cast wants to perform and i'd be dissappinted of they did not.I think some of them really dont know how to Treasure things.
Speaking about treasure..Reffering to some people who really really dosent know how to.So sadd.
Ah ks,i'm gonna eat
Bye shaggy Asses.

Open up with your sunlight

I'm finally free for my com now.
Woke up earlier than i wanted to and cycled my ass to the ahtong field which looked like the sahara desert from any angle.
We played with the team from Christ church,is it a church or a school?well all were cheena.
The match was awesome with us conceeding a goal then fighting back to a score of 4-2!
The match was extremely funn and i played exactly how i wanted to..not just staying in the mid but running up for assistance and to attack,hahas i ran up so many times but still did not score mann,but nearly did.
In the last few mins,they scored a goal but was offside,then all went away from the field left cheehong and me.One feller there told all of us to fuck off so cheehong became hot hahas so funny.So they scold here and there blabla.Stupid people no fairplay.
Then stil couldnot rest but needed to go back 400 plus train;P
Nothing to say about that.
Then finally came home about 3 the bath and made maggimee cos my throat hurts like hell.
Supposed to play street soccer but crazy!i think i'm sick already laa! i'm not answering their calls.I'm goin to sleep!
Stupid world cup
Stupid france<-arrogant dicks
Not gonna watch world cup anymore mann.
ok bye laa,i wanna sleep;P

Ridin dirty


I'm bored so i'll blogg..hmm bored sounds so much like bloggin,amazing..maybe you want you to blog whenever the hell your bored.
So i just woke up now..still feeling fuzzy cos just now i was damn tired and skool just passed too fast today.So i went home changed and left,cos they wanted me to play soccer in skool,i knew it was goin to be tireing laa!and it was! it was hotdamn hot!..haha but i put some sunblock before goin outt hahas don tell anyone.
Then played and all that..wow i was seriously off form mann.those lower sec people could beatme today mann.
OH yeah,i got knocked around today and my left side of my face is abit swollen!ah nvm.
Hah,naz heard when me and morsaid we miss people and all that during class then she talk to me and mor about it hahas,i was like "DOTS!"
DNT was fun today when Fran gave me a really brilliant idea mann!somthing i really liked hahas.shes so funny mann.now i really got somthing to do!
i think i wanna follow owens wayy already,drink soya bean to become whiter LOL,eh! it works okay!!
Okay gonna go watch singidol byee!

Let her go.


Hi,
Long times,quite a short statement to say that i've enjoyed my hols.We did lodsa stuff back thenn.
M aybe i enjoyed too much when i was supposed to do my maths or DNT.Thats past now,still got time to do those stuff.
Com was down like foreever mann,then today i went to get my cpu from da shope.
start or skool has been....quite pleasant laa,seems like start of skool and my hair looks like crap mann!
Got caught today as usual,dumdicks.
Theres more stress around it seems ah.
Yea okays thats all(:

666



Once in a lifetime.
People often misuse this term,but here we are on this day 6th june 2006 which happens once in a thousand years.
Nothing special happened for me today,went to guis house to watch movies then home to slack the whole day off.
Theres some certain urge in me to end my days with somthing special or fill it with special memories,the drive is there.The reason?,maybe to whisk the mundane-ness of life where you forget what you did last week or yesterday and your life would just mean nothing to yourself.I really dunno why i need to do this and when i don't?,theres a certain loss when the day passes off.
I need sentosa!
I need slip-ons!
I need New tees!
I need you!

Big shoutout to Fransisca and Danny! HAPY BIRTHDAY DEVIL PEOPLE!
Once again i..

Spur of the moment

I was spurred to blog again not for the urge or spilling my guts onto the world wide web but just for the sake of blogging or maybe to not dissapoint my stalkers ;P
I was sick less than a day ago and i think i'll be well tomorrow,cos i might be tonning ay kais house tomorrow then off to training on sunday morning for out match this wed.
We got a person to overlook ourtrainings now,point out our mistakes and so.I think its good.
When do people search for girl/boyfriends?,is it their lonely or just a trend.
Don't they know that they neglect everything they already have eg:your real friends.
Some people really can't see this,or is that they have poor time management or their G/Bf's are real evil to prevent them from goin out with friends and be only with eachother.
Theres the need to have somone to hold and talk-to till late and share everything from secrets to your boxers but whyy?
When did the need to start eh?,we were fine in primary skool,just fine.
And then they say "oh it wont last long""break in few weeks",is this just a trend too to have more EX-es that others,to show that your hott stuff.
Ah,i dunno.
When i type i just type okay,i dont need to please you.
I feel damn uneasy.

The F Word: History and Applications

(For the non soft hearted)

Of all the words in the English language, one of the most useful and yet most controversial is the word FUCK. Strangely, there are hundreds and even thousands of words in the English dictionary, and yet FUCK is the only word that is referred to as the ‘F’ word. It truly is a very magical word, because not all words can mean two very opposite things at the same time.
The word FUCK can actually connote both pleasure and pain, or both love and hate at the same time, and in rare occasions, even in the same sentence!
Unknown to many, the word FUCK is actually a German derivative of the word “Frichen”, which means “to strike”... The exact date or age when this word was fully corrupted into the English language is unknown, but we can all assume that, in the early beginnings of the word, it was used to connote sexual intercourse between two people. However, it can be noted that FUCK is the only word that can be used in the most parts of speech known to man, especially in modern times. If used as a transitive verb: “Adam FUCKS Eve.”
If used as an intransitive verb: “Eve FUCKS.”
If used as a noun: “Stay away, FUCKER!”
If used as an adjective: “Ryan’s doing all the FUCKING work!”
If used as an adverb for a verb: “I’m trying to FUCKING sleep!” If used as an adverb for an adjective: “Eve is FUCKING beautiful!”
It can even be a different part of a speech, all in one sentence! Take for instance the sentence: “FUCK off, you FUCKING FUCKED FUCKERS!”
Yet one the most amazing applications is to modify a word by inserting it into the word itself, giving stress and importance a million times over, like for example, the words: “abso-FUCKING-lutely!” or “in-FUCKING-credible!”
The word FUCK is definitely a word of so many uses. Strangely, even saying only the word “FUCK!” is already a complete sentence in itself, though it is not advisable because just saying that one word, due to its many applications, is quite vague in terms of its meaning because it can connote many things.
It can mean dishonesty (The insurance company FUCKED me.), it can mean difficulty (I don’t understand this FUCKING question!), it can mean aggression (Don’t FUCK with me, buddy!), it can mean trouble (Oh, I’m so FUCKED now.), it can mean incompetence (My teacher’s a FUCKER!), or it can mean dismissal (Go FUCK yourself!).
You can fill in more meanings by yourself. Lately though, we see it constantly being used with the pronoun “YOU”. When both are used, it is already a complete sentence in itself. It can mean a lot of things depending on the situation.
If somebody told you that you’re ugly and you reply by shouting “FUCK YOU!” with a smile, it can mean that you agree with him, but saying it with a frown and a raised fist can mean aggression. If somebody proposed his/her love to you, and you frown and say “FUCK YOU!”, it’s connotes disbelief. If you reply an “I love you” with a smiling “FUCK YOU!”, it’s already as good as “I love you too!”
The power of the word FUCK even transcends racial and class boundaries, because you can use it on anyone regardless of race, color, gender or orientation. Just one use of the word FUCK and everybody will automatically know what kind of person you are and how you were raised. With all this said, let us not be afraid of the ‘F’ word.
Not many words exist with the same tenacity and the same power. Therefore, we must shine in pride, as the existence of the word FUCK simply means that we are near to perfecting our language and human communication in general.
Thank you for orienting yourself with this magical word, and if you have reached this far in reading, with a smile I would like to say “FUCK YOU!!!"

Sore Los er


Its times like these when i really feel like just writing down somthing but i really dont like the idea of blogging anymore.I feel its too open and stupid to write and post pictures of yourself on the fricking net,no its not fetched and popular.

I just thought while watching a movie just now,what if this goes away again?.for the dunno how many the fuck times..i'm just dissppointed in myself ok,so are my friends alike,i guess me and them think i'm dumb.
i need somone to help me.
My arm hurts me,no not the wound,some internal injury i think,so does my knee,its so pain sometimes and then gone,what the hell is wrong there!?
I feel so tired nowadays.
Ah,i think i dont wanna blog anymore,screw it

Oh yea,i love TeChNo!

i WANTED TO BLOG ALOT BUT NOW I DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE
Chao(:

SHE

I wanted to go skool at 6 but my neck still hurt then i slept awhile more,
Reached ard recess time then went for some e-learning thingy,did nothing there laa,chatted and disturbed people.
After skool went to play some skool street soccer,played and played then BOOM
Me and sean fell,my skin was all over the ground and i saw my elbow was scraped like hell,but after that what was worse was my arm was trembling and there was alot of dull and sharp pains,it was really pain laa.
No need to pity me
Then went home and felt like vomiting and all that so i slept and slept until ard 7.
Hm,not goin malacca anymore,i suddenly did not feel like goin so yea.
I wanna watch X-men 3!
Ask me out people!

Fate.

Fate.

She wrote me a poem today.
I feel like dying over and over again
i dont know myself anymore.

No one can help me yett.
Aiyo..

Here we are now.Entertain us.



What a roller coaster day!
Went to skool at recess time again and went to dnt.
After that they all went to my house to change,and that om was irritating to step on my leg LOL.
Went under the block to group our whole people then after some time we went to the block deside the field to change and all that for Yishun TOR versus skool team.
It was hell for me i tell you.
First half i fell 3 times.
First of the times i was pushed when tackling the ball and scraped my ass
Second time i was elbowed in the face i think.
Third time was worst,i was getting so much of the ball form the feller that when a cross came in and i was running to pump it,he came from behind and hooked my leg,i tell you i was 360 degrees in the air and landed awkwardly,at first my ankle hurt abit,then my neck hurts now,think its sprained or somthing.
They played very dirty laa.
In the endd TOR well deserved the win of 8-6 after a last penalty kick which they wasted trying to hit one of our faces cos we were standing behind the goal post.DICKS.
After that went to ljs then over to street soccer court to play more soccer!
We must have been mad right?
After that it was 8 plus then we went home,i was super shacked.

Hmm,i wonder if you can have the power to not make people love you,or love you.i wonder.
Bye(:

Sieze the day.


Bottom line..had a ton of funn play street -cum-basketball soccer today in the heavy rain!
of course i stank and all that on the bus ride home.
Lessons were boring so me and owen decided to go eat breakfast then go to skool ard recess time,i wasted my time in skool totally.
Tomorrow goin recess time again,cos theres dnt after recess
Shall blog another time.

Requirm


Don't really know what to say anymore,if al of what their saying is true then why do i think differently?.
i think i will not try like they say but give up yet again

failure for mysefl


Oh yea its sunday.

Post-Hardcore


What an interesting day.
firstly-some results.
A2-bio
His-top
Just two only..quite boring..
Nair caught my hair again today,it was all fine until that sialan chua came and said he wanted to send me home,then i said "okay,no problem,send me home laa"then he started this shit about giving me beta record and offence form and all that shit!wow...i was shocked but not becaused i was scared but because he was damn stupid!..because of my hair he wanna give me all this shit..i tell you i could hav laughed..and i did hahas.
Enough of that..makes me sick.
Apart from that nothing much but bio was funn.
Then after skool had to hear some girls screaming back and fourth.Like it mattedered to the whole world hahas.
Gonna go somone's house watch the champions league finals later on with BEER and NUTS!
wow im gonna enjoy mann!
BARCELONA-ARSENAL!
GO BARCA!

Forget it.Forget everything that ever happened.Forget.Forget.

SUCK ARSE!


YOU KNOW WHY I WAS SAD YESTERDAY?
Went to town and ther was this sale at frechbox,omg tees goin for just 11 bucks!
AND I DIN GET ANY WHILE ALMOST ALL MY FRIENDS RAIDED THE SHOP CLEAN
Fuck!
the shirts were oh so nice......wasted!
So went to training in the morning,and i think i scored some spectacular goals hahas,some arrogant playmaker huH?
I think my ankle needs time to rest cos it gets injured easily.
Ate in the coffee shop then went homee.
Slept with my contacts on.
Yeah BTW i'm wearingexpired ones...wth ami too broke to buy hahas.
Goin over to my aunts house for Nicole's birthday...my stomach has many space so there i'm goin to fill it to the brim!
Bye(:

You'll never know




I get so ticked off by very mundane things now a days..like
People who i dont want messaging me messages me and dont go away.
Irritating blogs telling people how their life sucks or how EMO they are or whatever fuck.
Totally stupid girls
People who piss me off my by saying the most stupid things about what i do.

So please people,go away and dont be sorry or tell me what i should or should not do.
Nvm,I dont really care..its your life anyway..you can fuck it if you want to.

Liberation!


LIBERATI! REVOULTION!

Last day of exams for us here,and for the other poor souls who have to mug their ballz off TOO FRICKIN BADD!
hahas
The tests had been fun..yes it was very interesting to do it o'level style but no thanks.
Lookin foreward to post exam acivites like air rifle and malacca trip wahaha
Yes theres still o'levels but who cares?!i live for the moment.
Cal me if you wanna go out cos i'm ever so free(:
Chaio

Roses were red,
Violets were blue.



I had a dream last night man,
It was like we were playing match and then i scored a goal but then i got really injured and told mor and kai that i couldent play anymore,it was damn painfull man!
Then i woke up..wow never had a dream like this before cos since that match my thigh always been cramping and acting very wierd.
Okays enough of that.
I'm goin outt soons to study with themm.
Yesterday was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Boring..we were really doin nothing!. went to mors house,went chong pang,met kai,talked and laughed.went np,met arthur,then walked to safra! wanted to play pool but my card was expired.then went to PaP rally! then went to meet mor's nieces.
Then went home about 10 plus!
Its was damn lame and funny laa.

Dunno why but i just felt very wierd yesterday,i dont go thinking of somthing for hours and while i'm doin other things.
Haiz...i gotta say this but.
Mor:i'm a bastard and i break hearts.

Bye

PPSS:
HELLO MIRA STALKER!(:
i love you! hahas lol!

Storm in a Teacup


I dont know why but i feel compelled to blog now,
Had ss paper in the morning,my spotting was spot on! hahas and i did the questions with ease mann.
But maths?
I felt the paper was easy but just that i did not study for it so wasted.
Tomorrow its english paper 2 and history..wow gotta pick a few chaps from 10 chapters mann that hell there.
Oh yeah i spilled coke all over my pants in bk today..omg the feeling was.....so wet.. hahas!
So Kapo!
I cant wait till the exams are over...cos i love seeing results.i dunno why.
I think i was dreaming last night.
One hint for girls:please hate me(:
Lol they were scolding me cos i knew what was goin to come out for SS and i din tell anyone! LOL but when i told owen last night he din believe me! SEE FOR WHAT TELL YOU! hahas
okay bye
Iloveyou(:
**Edit
Theres this gift from somone that is always there for me but at wierd times i suddenly cant find it!really its no joke..i can't find it now,i hope i could fin it now tho.
I bring you a storm in a teacup.

PT2:


Just back from studyin,i din study alot cos i was really thinking alot about something..what if it does happen?will i say yes?
Don't you hate it when the totally wrong person likes you?
wow i got totally no focus to study now mann,somone please help me.
Nvm,i will study and wont regret or let anyone down
Just lemme think more for the time being.
Can i be an ugly nerd again?

Went causeway with two dumbies and hanief for lunch that was the cause of my sorethroat.
I felt that i was a pig to eat alot man,too bad i was hungry.
Okok...not too badd
Then went to the drivethru mac to meet them.

Got sorethroat and ulcer! omg.
Quitted*

The Perfect Stranger


So i think its finally safe to blog.
Lots of stuf have benn happening since my last post yea?
Exams tomorrow..cant hide from that the thing i will study is bio.
Today was not badd,quite alot of people dint come to skool today so it was like too quiet,at least ron owen and i were fooling ard(:
Quite relaxed today yeah
Now i doont know what to blog about
Maybe i'm goin to study with them later on
Maybe i'm goin out with that clown pat
Or maybe i'm staying at home with my brother(:
so fun rights?too many chioces
Yesterday went to pool/study with owen kheng gui arthur en,not badd la quite fun also but i din really study much! hahas was thinking most of the time.
OH,i'm looking foreward to goin melacca with our class peoples on 8th of june WHEE
It'll be damn fun mann hahas hunting and al that..something to look foreward to eh?
Okays its getting boring now,bye!

Hero to Zero


Yes i'm back!
So tired these few days..all because of that stupid structured lessons damn them all!
Rained in the morning,quite nice actually.
I feel that i do totally nothing in skool and get really tired of it,easily.the only thing i look foreward to is soccer after skool...why..
So a friend of mines bro in law passed today,my condolences to his family.
Goin to the wake tomorrow after our soccer match with zhan hong.
Perhaps i only need somone to hold or kiss that lips
Somone said i was cute and that my hair was nice today!WOO
hahas lame.
Thats all..
I feel sucked,and shoes from stephen will help me!
Bye.

Can you see me smiling? Maestro?


PE was fun today,we played street soccer joga bonito style! lotsa fun and we played till we were wet as hell!
Has chinese oral today,guess it was not as bad as i thought(:
Lessons after skool again..pain in my butt.
Then played foosel in the hall!,its street soccer but played in indoors which was damn fun!played till my uniform became see thru! hahas then went homee
Lookin foreward to mid-years..yes you heard it,mid years.
And also!!!
Soccer versus skool team and on fri is versus zhan hong team!WOOHOO
Gonna trash some dicks!
Or score some goals(:
Oh shit..i havent washed my boots form that muddy day..maybe it grew algae already!
Argh gotta go wash bye!

i've spent hours with that smile. stupid. i am.

Words to describe myself now could be Passive sad-case.
School was not particuarly exciting today..except for the fact that we called up singtell and pranked them!omg it was damn funny!
Structured lessons in the afternoons suck big timme,i dont understand why really..so tired and sleepy.
After that went to play some street soccer and went home to find that my two socks the soles tore.omg..
Went mors house to lepak abit then went home.
Feelin quite neglected right now..so many paths to choose no one to walk with.each of my friends have their own things or their own signifigiant others to cater to but me?,i'm there to provide entertainment?
What then are we left with,without our personalities and gifts and friends and actiosn and clothes and accessories?
Ha..then what?
Would you like me if i had no money or could not crack a joke or fail in school?,perhaps everyone wants to be popular..
Hmm... i've got nothing else to say
Is everyone's dream to have somone to talk to and hold and hug when you want to?-strange..
Okay enough emo-ness.
Found out today that i was band one in english so i'm under ms ling! for english lessons omg!
I need to sleep in the afternoon,i have the urge to!
To stop sleeping in class everday;P

I LOVE YALL!-this is for the peoples i miss or havent seen for a long time(:,(its not gayy)

Thats all folks

I walk in lightning



I'm bored so i'm blogginThe skool got struck by lightning lol good for itAll i can remember today that is i slept thru maths and then had milo for lunch then went to the structured revision thingy in the afternoon,i feel sorry for sheryl lee mann,she was struggling to teach us! two classes!Then we headed to np where we ate KFC,i tell you i'm broke now!Then went to 800 plus to lepak abit bit,then there were so many police cars!Then there were TWO riot police busses goin up and down the road,and from the mesh covering the windows i could see some ah bengs inside,poor things hahas!No joke man riot police..they got the power to do watever they want in there man,even beat you up.Tehn i walked home form there in the RAIN!Saw owen comming out from skool,what nice timing.then they told me that the skool got struckt by lightning!NiceeThen they went to makan so i went home and a fricking tree was across the path,most prob also struct by lightning,quite cool.Boring structured lessons till thrus!Holi next mon!Exam on tues!ARGHChakdengdeng!


Blogger is screwed

Life!

Simple.
What i did just now,went out with tors,had the time of my life,talked,sang,joked,disturbed.
Then on the way home i was quite sadd.

Say bye-a.

Too young to worry.

Wow!
First ting we come to skool is get a lecture by the principals and all her lackeys!
Lecture about not being lazy blabla,basically to wake the hell of us up before it was too late ah.
Lol really heliarous!
Yeah,yesterday we played street soccer!damn funny! all of us were doin this blup blup thing to each other then we took turns aiming everybody there! damn stupid and funny mann!
Lessons were so-so
My pants were goin to burst man i swear!,too tight!
"IT IS I,THE BLIND GONG FU MASTAH!"
LOL
I feel skools gonna be more funn soon...dunno why(:

Dunno why i feel that the people in the skool are acting funny..like very...ignorant...hmm just small kids i think! hahas

Goin outt!

Classic(:


The day was jus classic,tinge of lateness when comming to skool.Abit of not knowing what the chem test was all about and the sweet smell of PE.

So recess was quite dangerous,not wanting my hair to b e caught by nair hm..
Maths was refreshing.
So today i feel quite relieved not to the sense that i am oblivious to the fact that theres piles of work undone and no dae fixed yet for their completion and the fct that mid-years is lurking around the corners and the bigger devil is yet to come in november.
So i talk about people.
Some people today i feel indebted to..for their help in many things and also strength.
Girls?...one or two make my throat choke and be at a loss of words to say when i talk to them which is ofcourse not normal for me.
Things are goin up now,of course not wanting to wait for times when its down again.
On the other hand....theres always soccer versus a pasir ris team at marina bay this sat! any cheerleaders wanting to come??(:

Goin off to bugis later on and then maybe some studying

Sieze the day.

Fight!-pt 1

Today was the last day before i was to forget about this whole handphone thing and these are the events that happened.

Skool-Dont really remember what i did in skool hmm....some boring lessons that i bearly paid attention to sorry.
Skipped maths class and went to 440 to meet these people whom were supposed to fight with but they had oral and all that so talked for abit then we all agreed to come back at ard 5

Intercession-
Went causeway with my mom to get my sim card and changed my plan and got a new handphone too!
Now got 3 handphones wahaha,thenwent to eat abit of breadtalk and then it was 4 plus already and i went to meet TORs at 7/11 to finally settle .

FIGHT-pt 2
Talked to one of the fellers there,we finally admitted.
Then talked to this bastard,we talked to him nicely but he was what we call sia-lan,so my cousin was angry at him cos the others could talk nicely like men but he had to be the one to play the gangster and be so cool so they were argueing and my cousin gave him a headbutt and he bled in the mouth and cried also i think.
So he called his headman to complain but what he din know that he was on my side already cos he washed his hands on this and gave us permission to do what we wanted so then he did his own shit.
Then talked awhile more then farhan came and gave me my phone,they talked first then i came and listen talked abit more then went to talk to Farhan alone.
He apologised to me about the troble he caused and so i accepted and then it was over,the other members also apolgised to me and TOR for this trobule

So after that i couldent go to joy joy with them and so i came home and went TTSH and came back ard 10 plus.

This was today.
Don't tell me that i'm a bad-boy or a gangster cos i'm not,i'm a nice guy(:

So call me people(:

We can live like jack and sally if you want.


Question of the time
SHOULD yishun tor versus bishan 11?...i dunno gotta ask them(:
It would give us a chance to really push ourselves

So today went easter mass then went to aunty monica's house,stight away i went and aimed the wonderfull food my grandmother cooked!,i tell you....it was heaven! summor on banana leaf sia..authentic indian food LOL,i ate two mountains of it(:
wanted some beer but when i asked it was finished
So it was damn funny,i earned 11 plus dollars form blackjack or ban lak
WAHAHA
me and nigel owning everybody,together we won about 26 bucks(:
by bro lost like shit.
Took pics!
and did alot of fun stuffs like drawing easter eggs,you know what i drew?
"in the name of god please let me win"
I really thought i would win cos they were all laughing like shit but my cuz won....10 bucks...hahas
ate pizzas and all that
Alot!
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Finally went home in my uncles car and skool tomorrow..maybe it might be fun with no homework being done(:
Nights fireflies

5 Little ducks?

Ah,so continued from yesterday....

Waited for mor for about 2 hrs for him to settle his family buisness then we finally left for woodlands.
Came to xians house and it was quite big acutally,couldent makan untill 12 but then ard 3 am plus we called macdonald LOL
Played xbox and all that,drank beer and talked all our worries out and all that,of yea it was mor me arthur owen zen xian khai amrit and veron(:
stayed at his house and so fast it was 6 plus am in the morning! wow then everyone slept but i wanted to watch young and dangerous part 6 so i watched while everyone slept,nice ending!
then when they woke up it was my turn to sleep!,and woke at ard 10 and played com and makane and sang some nursary rhymesLOL
I disturbed amrit when he was sleeping LOL
mor went to orchard first to meet his then finally we left at ard 12
Actually they called me out just now to go to easter vigill untill 11 but no space in de church already hahas sadness
so ate junk food and watched tv and now i'm bored

No writings about love today sorry to dissapoint(:
5 LITTLE DUCKS!

The Day of Days.

It was a good thing i went to church in the morning,really good.
after that went to makan with family +step and eric extras! hahas no laa.
So i'm getting a phone tomorrow form my mom cos she's gonna go to causeway to get my sim card and shes giving me her samsung flip phone(:
Then i'll be in contact with the world again,hahas,its sad i really liked the peace and quiet(:
after i came home i did nothing at home but sit and watch these music shows,not that badd,i like carlos santana!
Goin to xian's house later on to celebrate his bro's bday and makan some steamboat,but i cant eat lol
Wow,tomorrow's saturday,i really thought it was sunday already.Ah well was aching form head to toe form yesterday's match,which showed that i played like hell.
Thats it
Call my house people!(:

Passing the point of no return.

Hmm what shall i say,that i dreaded waking up today morning?,that i did not get one bit of sleep last night?,or that i simply dont care anymore?

So was 90 dollar voucher was stolen today courtesy of jazmonkey,she wanted to buy click 5 cd or somthing,dont really mind laa.
Skool was passing for me just for the soccer match after that,then came to my blk under to settle my hp buisness,they dint seem to care much so now it'll be for us to handle,
Farhan you fucker,i dont care if you sold my phone or what shit,i swear to your mother that i will beat you on monday untill you cry for help that your gang memebers wont give you,you bastard.
So headach,one by one my problems are piling up,unable to settle them at all.Just feel that i need not to care anymore.
So the bitter taste of loss in today's match,i missed 4 clear cut chances..so dissapointed of myself.
in the end it was 3-1 or 2-1,i dont really give a damn,we played well.
Just dont feel very loved right now.

Dissappointment to mostly everyone.

So went to police station and the woman questioning me was quite rude and irritatable.then she asked me to come back another day with my serial no.
Went to mac then to makan and the woman there actually gave me one mcchiken and chiken fantastic when i only ordered a mc chicken meal,hah..some simpathy there,so buger went to owen.
Dunno,now i feel like i fuck everytiing i do.Don't really feel like comming skool anymore,i need a really long break away from home or skool to think,i hate everything now.
.....

Thanks for all the well wishes and help everyone





Today went skool at 10am

had some fever in the morning so decided to sleep more at home before comming to skool.
Went to skool and everybody ing the hall shouted my name;P lol was so loud!
So went to talk with mor for abit thenslowly one by one came.
So their headman had work today,nvm i'll let untill tomorrow for them to handle their inside problem,if still cannot then we'll handle it ourselves,i wont mind if i get punished for hurting one of the three people,vengence is all i ask now.

went home after skool then slept for abit cos not feeling well,then now goin police post soon with the Os to report then maybe goin to makan some food.
Got to get better tomorrow for the match against zhan hongs team,which is what we wanted to play since foreever,so i got to be well enough.Maybe to settle the hp problem with those people.
Fri's good friday,dunno what i should expect.

Maybe having no phone is quite good,like not much stress,but now i have nothing to wake me up every morning;P

Chiao

Pink flowers on dying sunset.

Are you really triyn got tell me somthing?,i really dont know,i hardly talk to you anymore or see you,not sure...please tell me,if not it would be for nothing.
Went to sean teams training today,pretty good stuff and i became a notch blacker now nice..just nice..then after that went homw to bath and change then off to jus house,but then on the way we changed our minds and went to mors house cos he was sick and did not go swimming so we went there to make him happy(:
talked alot and sang and laughed like shit then ard 6 we left for np,me to popular to finally buy the olevel eng book which i dont know what to do so i predict i'm dead tomorrow,then went to mac to makan and met steph halfway so talked with her for a while then she left,then we left(:

Sun:
Went outing with BP,me owen jaz and greg lol quite funny,took loads of pics and went ard shopping and finally to cityhall where we picked sago seeds in the night;P yes in the night with no light,it WAS hard but we picked 100 pluss for owen
I find that wearing contacts is a totall waste of time and money so in due time i'll be switching to specs again with much begging of my mom to but me a new frame!
Then i'll be free of contacts and eye infections and whatnots.

I love you,yes you reading this blog now sitting in ur chair with ur nice hair and pinkness

Dont worry..no sugar(:

The times we talked away..


So i'm not gonna blog about the whole day today,yes today is speeeh day.Had fun yea but at the same time there had to be problems propping up,eldds went great.My mom came,think alot of perople know her,then after that went to find tor and then went np with LES to talk for hours then went to jus and zen tot alk sumore then went omme.

Thats was short right?
thought so..

Are you trying to tell me somthing?,why now?why?

You'll know it when it happens-so sad..




Not much mood to blog so i'll just lay down the grim shit

Tireing day,nevertheless...after skool it was rehersals rehersals,Bla!
dont really wanna talk about that,cos then there will be ppage upon page of swearing and all that.
Went to play street soccer abit then went to makan,then after some talking i went home.
Rehersal again tomorrw
i dont wannt live anymore

Today i found out that i was a failure.

Time to let go Les-

I've seen you happy these days,so now i'll do the ultimate of letting you go.its high time and not dwelling on it will make me happier-

How do your reach the truth if lying has become a habit?How do we keep the past alive without becoming its prisoner?How do we forget it without risking its repetition in the future?How can you tell the truth if the mask you have adopted ends up being identical to your face?

so today was hmm..
Oh! i ran 2/4 today AGAIN and my timeing was 9.40s! woo beat my initial timing of 9.59s.
Witht the guidence of sean that is,owen was infront of me but then be dropped behind with i overtook him and then we walked but then i shouted at him to run again and so he did in the end sean was first me second and owen third,then went back to skool and played soccer,scored a goal and alot of tiang and misses,skill improved! faked gui and karnan alot lol.
after that went to bio then recess,om lost her wallet halfway hahas what a bird so i asked her tofind it in the toliet and it was really there!lol dont i know girls so well?
After that maths then cl,went to libaray to sleep lol whihe the others did their work then mdm parames woke me to tell me somthing,the she ended with "see sleeping!,thats why you never got an award"crap.
Then eng,got scolding by indra cos we din change into out uniform form pe,she scolded me solo before scolding the rest together,i really wonder why..i still dont know.
After that went BK to makan!,woots used my voucher to buy a really BIG MEAL! PIG.
after that went back to skool for rehersal,polished most of it up,it was raining so there was this scarf that amrit was wearing and i took it,the backstage lights were off and i wore the scarf on my head and walked ard.
Jali was goin to on the lights and i stood behind him thinking that he already saw me,but he did not!,he shouted cheebai! and wanted to punch me LOL,that was scare no.1
Then ayu was at the back and i just stood behind her and then she freaked out and was goin to cry!,after that i retired from scaring people and then acted seriously.
Good day on the whole,just tired.
Letting it go was a good chioce today,seeing her happy with another today..yea ok..
But theres one i will never ever forget.
Actually i cant wait till sat,getting two prizes then acting the.......NONO,MORNING soccer match first vs seans cousin then goin to skool,so if you see me like a fricking zombie please make me high!,hope i perform well and that ToR wins(:
Then after acting is enjoying then eating dinner in skool,i love the skools dinner!
Yea,Fri is international friendship day and i bet the day is goin to be super!,international food served at the canteen!!!!!foods like katong laksa and whatnots!!WOO!then after that is saka sushi with owen,om,vveron,mor and others,so i bet i'm gonna be fat like an arse!


Listening to country songs now,no i havent switched over,from young i grew up on these songs,i remember my uncle would make me my bro and my cousin sit down and remeber one song and then he would play the guitar and we would sing to the whole family,really it was very fun as i feel that these songs have alot of meaning and alot of life,it really means alot to me,reminds me of the old days and my uncle boy-i miss that alot.

You all say you dont know me anymore,well youre all the same,people change when they need to and i can say that for this,i had to change,so if you see me on the street and i dont look like what you want me to look like and you dont like the things i might be doin then so be it,i dont live just to please you i live for myself,dont tell me i dress badly or look like a fool cos i wont listen to you.

I dont thinks she likes me no more-


So,the day has been good to me!
And,does everyone hate a smoker?
Byee--

Self-styled bastard-Unholy confessions 1

Ah,just back from skool,ya its 9.30pm.
Just had a general feeling that i was very useless today,i din not do any of my english homework,not even maths,all of them are piling up on me,i cant understand maths at all.
Recess i saw somone happy and i nearly choked on my pain.
After skool went to rehersal shit,
I tell you i did not win any CCA prize as a matter of fact,i feel really betrayed that owen naz and greg won the fucking thing but i did not,all i did for this cca and in the end all i get is what?of course i'm human i'll feel cheated especially when i feel that i deserved it more than greg or naz,really do,me and owen planned last year that we both would do it together.Fuck the drama.
Another thing,I found out that i'm not top student anymore even tho i am the top student,frans is now top,i dont blame her but what the fuck?!does the principal and vp not like me or is it my fucking attitude or how i look?,i tell you i will NEVER be one of ur fucking model nerd ass students for you to show around.So thats why i felt really cheated today but well fuck it,its already happened so why do i care anymore?
Din feel like doin a proper run so i switched off my mike in my scene cos i dint feel like doin it properly,Then after that the last run i did it ok.
Din wanna complain to any teachers about that,free service right?

After that,i got the hell outta there and went to 761 and played abit of soccer.
Another thing is that money for the whole month suddenly became on 5 dollars,dunno how the hell it got that way today is only the 4th,how the hell could i possibly spend more than 50 dollars in four fricking days!somthings goin on there.Haiz

I read in somones blog that they look at the stars on their way home,and i suddenly remember that i do do that alot but i just look at the moon alot and then the stars,it seems to relax me,like the moon's sucking away all your trouble,while sitting down and having a nice drink.
Sad to say that now i find that some girls have motives to what their do to you,like if they want to just play around with you for a while or they want your money or attention or they want you to do somthing for them like you owe them the world,there are many more motives but i wont say anymore.Feel quite sick of this its like every one of them dont seem like real human beings
Traumatized*

Sumarry
-Felt cheated like fuck today
-Heart pain
-Luckily no ass pain by ron
-tired to death
-overall it was just a shitty day

Oh i joined the Hong xin gang today under liu lol we are against the other pig gang LOL
Thats it.

For You.

I came into skool and.was tired like hell,in biolesson i slept for one period but strangely woke up with he started teaching about the reproduction,dont call me a pervert but seeing the class and mostly the girls reacting to him was nice,and also ron was there so it was surely funny,leason was over and i havent done a comphre and 2 summaries for eng so i surely thought i was goin to die there,but i did not,indra was in a nice mood today(:
So as i slacked thru everything,i thought about the previous day's happenings and what sad shit i felt.
The skool wanted to take our pics for the skools mag so it was a perfect chance for me to skip maths lesson(:
Quite stupid posing here and there,felt quite lame but it was fun with greg fran and yochin.
So by end of skool i had totaly no mood to go for the stupid rehersalshit and also din talk much or anything then,then came back to calass to find them but thery were already gone so luihui followed me to the canteen to buy things then saw zen,said he wanted to whack somone in 4A,so i just followed,would be fun to see those express stuck up dicks get scared,so we called em out,blablabla,his face said he was scared(:
XXX
din get to see somone i wanted to afta skool,so i went to class but jaz asked me to buy her some thingiis but i was not goin out already so i asked mor to buy but he bought the totally wrong thing LOL Sorry(:
Played some game in FA enrichment,i won 5 dollars voucher for BK!
Then went with veron to np to find xiian while the others would come laters,ate some koran food then went over to 761 there to talk for abit about some stuffs with zena ns luihui.then reached home at 9.
Some say that all the people in busses or Mrts look dead and expressionless but for me i tihnk that taking a long bus ride or mrt ride is really very good for reflecting on the days happenings VERY GOOD,took a LOOONG ride home.
I've decided i woont do much,i'll just wait with memories
XXX
MAkan
Ps:Cookies i know who you are wahah(:

My S&K bag.*

Went to bugis with zen veron xian and athur after church,slacked ard for a bit then went to kathib to pick veron then the rest came and so we headed there
Mood:Extreme happy

So the train ride was quite fast and we reached and found them in a sec,talked and talked then walked ard bugis cos their performance was not yet to begin,veron bought an s&k bag,wanted to buy a camo cap but couldent be found,then went back for their performance.
Chris and greg were already there.
Their performance was,really great man,except for some probs bt ron and ade but it was very good!

Then after that i was really confusedd,kept asking myself alot of questions.
Mood:fucked
i had no heart to do anything kept thinking and thinking,ah i don't know..
Slept thru the bus ride,i was too tired.
bought milkshake in np then went ard with owen and greg then went on the bus then had a walk home.
thats all
quite torn.

Swirls of milo foam

wOw
Jus back from khais house,went there last night to ton.
Met them at ard 9 plus at 123 then watched abit of chelsea and birmingham,0-0.Then went the temple for abit play cards and wait for then to finish their stuff then went to 123 again to makan and this time got ManUmatch against bolton2-1
Ate then went to meet mor then go to khais house,on the way there singing stupid indian songs damn loud hahas!.
Then reach already he din let us in so we sat at the staircase even tho he called us in already hahas.
Oh yea yesterday was april fools day,they tired to trick me saying that sean broke his wrist or some shit,hah!
Apriels fool has become quite boring,last time i remember we used to do some elaborate pranks on some idiots!
So i played his ps2 while they were playing 02jam,stupid game GTA
Then after that seaching the web for some ghost vids or any shit that can scare us lol,then before that we went to mac to buy some food before we got ourselves scared.wanted to makan at viod deck but then got police so we went to the staircase landing to eat lol,like illigal people!
So went back and then surfed SPI then API then sfogs lol lame,trying to find ghost stories about Northbrooks,northview,yishun park blabla.most of the stories are totall bullshit but then not badd la,so we offed the com finally then tried to scare ourselves to hell,the mor crawled behind the bed then took my hp and oned the light then fricking scared me to death!
More and more scary shit was happening,i tried to scare then but then gave up cos the obvious winner was the bloody mor,always up to some shit.
Then slowly kai slept then the topic changed to girls then we talked and talked then talked about girlfirends and love and all that,then after that to having sex and babies then teaching sons how to fight and daughters how to cook and get married then also tor beating all the gangs in singaporeLOL!!
Alot of bullshit happened there laa
We talked untill the sun came up then i slept for about half an hour then went home cos i gotta get goin to church now(:
Maybe goin out laters to see some cheer performance or somthing,Maybe.
Skool tomorrow!
Bye ghosts!

Nobody likes you,so the title says:

And so the day passed,now its gonna be 11 soon on this friday night 31st march 2006

The day passed very fast,they showed this disgusting vid about caining anf drugs in the morning in assembly,omg early early morning want me see people bloody backside with all the nice cuts ar,wtf disgusthing shit.
Then lessons were okays,made cappy jokes in class as usual(:
Then after skool went to follow jaz and fran to makan in canteen while waiting for naz to come back,i really did not want to go to the rehersal,hardly anyone was there blabla
The rehersal was damn...one word...Suck.

Then after that i was quikly whisked away to 761 to play some street soccer,then it rained like hell,the sky was so dark!
Then talked under the blk,went to makan,then sat mors blk there to talk talk,then suddenly talking ghost storries.I TELL YOU,don talk ghost stories to kai,omg he can say tihings ar...laughed like BALLZ and scared like shit while talking alot our encounters and army and all that omg,then 10 plus we all had enough and wanted to go back to the safety of our homes hahas,then all ask accompany to bus stop all this hahas.
Wow,i really had fun,a real break from normal stuff(:
Soccer improved also!
Tomorrow might be goin to tamasek poly.
Haiz...pls dont insult what you dont know,you know you mouth is such a power ful weapon,all i got to say..weather it is DB or ToR...ah..nothing to say
Saw Hers today!Wee

Treasure or regret-
Dudes and the Babes-

Ah,Comfort with pain...

sO today was nice.
We three good guys were up to no good as usual,after humans class me and mor went to toliet abit to wash face then ronald come to us and said "eh wanna go drink water anot,walk across the path laa."the path was the one with the solar panels ans with the gate at both ends to prevent peoples from crossing so we climbed over and walked,ronald said walk slowly so we walked then halfway mr NG saw us and shouted at us hahas,then ron said eh don run la walk au sapala abit,so we walked au and climbed the other railing and drank water,by that time mr ng ran upstairs to catch us so he shouted at us to come faster,so we walked slowly again to him,when we reached him,he scolded us about alot of things like being sec 5 so cool blabla, then asked us to see him after skool for some caining or suspension.
So we were like laughin like hell then mor said "eh wanna see him anot?"the ron said"dont care la"so after awhile we changed our minds then decided to see him,went to the 1dt floor benches to sit cos i had no mt lesson mor skipped his malay,omg the girls toliet stank from there man!WTH.
Then 2 pm so we went to see mr ng,he made us walk here and there then finally to hod room to talk to us,se said things like do you think the path is safe,so we gave him some sarcastic remarks back and blabla,but he was not in a bad mood,he said that we being sec 5 can bully people and that we were higher than heaven,blabla,we were(:,so after the talk he decided to spare us of any punishments and let us off,lol!

NAPFA TEST:
Went home to makan then went back to skool,played abit of touch passing befrore starting the test
Heres the results
Sit up:60
Sit and reach:40cm
Standing broad jump:245cm
Shuttle run:9.5 sec
Pull up:13
WEE maybe i'll get gold
I did better this year than any other!woohoo
After that went to meet xian then went to np to makan with veron and xian then headed to 761 to play some street soccer but by time i came they were about to leave so we went unda the blk to chit chat,EN trained my ball control and cutting(:THANKS!
Thenw ent mors house to take track pants to pass to sean then went np again to give the things to sean.he waited with me for bus then i bought him mentos and left(:

Can tomorrow be betteR?
Long-ASS post!

So the day was filled with nostalgia(:

Hah!
Today was funn,in chem lesson me and owen was correct all the mistakes that ms lee was making,when she made one mistake then we went "WA-TA!"LOL then she would turn and ask us what noww..LOL
then pe ran 2.4 km
My timing was 9.59 woo! it seemed damn short almost too short! i was second and first was mor hahas A for 2.4 already.
Then after pe i was damn hot,then jaz went and wore mor's pants then she took it off and wore mine then they dared me to wear her skirt so i wore it,quite nice actually...not while some guys kept lifting it upp lol,they dared me to walk to the other classed like that but NO,handbag is as far as i'll go(:

After that plaed police and thief in mt lesson then slacked the rest of the day,went out pasir malam for food then when we were walkeding back it reained damn heavily! and i started running like a dog then look behind and sawthat mor fell like crap into the grass!LOL,luckily he was not hurt
Wet like heck and went to financial course then went under mors house to lepak abit bit then went home(:(:

I can't really type what i want to say now so i'll leave it as it is
Nights!
Eto'o

Blogging in the cold..

Today was cold,why the hell din i want to bring my sweater to skool?,borrowed verons one by the way,came in class then dunno who shouted"Les! yuo cut ur hair!" then jaz said i looked like dunno what.
See expected.
Slowly i still got till dec to grow my emo hair and dye it white.
Very cold means very sleepy day
Lessons..not badd except maths where sean kept on kao being that yunza was teaching crap and mr yongs way was better,then he tought us,damn funny!
i wished to talk to some peoples today but did not get the chance to.sad
Missed talking to some people.
Went home to eat then left to go skool for eldds
Did some nonsense there but overall,abit boring.
No teacher blabla

The word to describe my feelings right now?Numb i think
People ard me talk about their girls and this and that and i just shut down and dont listen or listen and be sadder;P
Clock is ticking...
Cinta

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I never write two posts in a day let alone in less than 3 hours.
The fact is that i'm not happy at all now,i'm just lying to myself stright in my face
I don't like much now.
How the phone never seems to beep or ring
No one calles or cares
Yes my friends are there for me but they only can do so much
I don't like goin home or skool much,where does that leave me?goin out with friends?
Balls.
Stupid o'levels,wish i had taken it last year and got over with it.i could have done it if i wanted.
Boring boring
I don't like this thing called love.jaded.

Oh yeah,veron keeps saying my new haistyle looks cute;P
Kx says i look like a dickhead.
Lol
I bet their gonna laugh at me tomoorrw in skool
Lol nvn,i don't play the popularity game in skool,could hardly bother(:

Is there no truth in beauty?-From a poem

Dissapointment:

Today i woke up and *thought it was goin to be a great day.
Headed down for soccer match versus some big looking people,hardly like ex-northview peoples.
First half- 2-1
We were winning by one,despite the fact that ozk din play ment that we din have a keeper so hong played keeper first half,they other team peoples were fucking rough slideing and body contact here and ther,haha they gt a penilty but hong save then he disturbed them after he saved the ball shouting somthing like Boo! or somthing LOL
So fist half ended
Then sean came and he was playing cool!
So then second half came and i played like crap!
Losing ball here and there!simple pass also i patheticly missed wtf?
so i was trying to redeem myself with some clearing and all that shit in the midfield,super rough mann.
was elbowed in the arm,was damn pain.then final score was 5-4,we had lost
Feel quite disappointed cos i could have done alot better like in the match against sha kuns team
Yea they want a rematch next sat i think,chance to redeem myself,and i hope they wont have the cheek to use a handball as an excuse to fight again.i want to win.
I did not follow them to makan cos felt like crap so i went home and ate fries with milo ;P
watched some CSI then slept and woke to eat dinner.
Skool tomorrow,i feel totally unprepaired but i tihnk i'm glad that i'm goin back to skool tomorrow.i dont know why..
homeworks not done,revision not donee,i dont have the slightest idea what ms yuniza is teaching in maths.OMG please help me
Happy sunday;)

ice Milos with endless rainss

/Rained nicely today,Even tho i woke up at 1 plus,which was a first in many weeks.
Went Steamboat yesterday,we 14 people,created hell everywhere.The food was great yess,but i felt that i did not eat a much as i wanted to.the time passed almost too fast,then we took manymany pics with stup[id poses here and there(:
Cigs were a many.
Then went arcade,i watched them play games,the drum game seems quite nice,but arcade wastes my time ar.
On the bus,it was super packed!,we sang songs and shouted in the bus then arthur played doncha by PCD on his hp then asked uss to sing doncha wish ur boyfriend could fuck like me when the chorus came,LOL IT WAS SUPER LOUD AND THE WHOLE BUS LOOKD in our direction.LOL it was very funn
Then on the was to the mrt there was this portable outside toliet and sonome was in it then Chee hong went and disturb the lock the the person inside was like scared and moved around LOL,we RAN!
Then in the mrt we were randomly whacking anyone we wanted cos the plkace was deserted hahas i din whack anyone cos then i would be whacked lol!
Then went to kathib and to zens house to lepak and talk
then i said police and everyone strightaway got up and walked but then i said i was jokin and i got whacked for that LOL funny!
talked and did nonsense summor then went home.
Walked to the interchange and found out that my coins were missing Fuck!
So i had to walk my ass back home,it sucked alot.
Thought about many things along the way,the night was quiet so i thought and got angry and sad.
Went home finally and then slept.

Goin mass laters with zen and then tomorrow gots ToR match against some team
Wahaha looking foreward to that! wee!
So now,i'll make myself busy.

Did not go skool todays Woo
Sleept till ard 11 plus then maybe gonna go cut hair later onn,gonna cut super short laa,but keeping my tail wahah
Sore eyes almost gonna gone Wee
Not gonna get mc cos dont nned it
Goin steamboat laters to celebrate arthur bday
wahah dunno if i chould go eldds):
Bye!

Hmm,today i came to skool on time.
Steph and the other girl were talking about me when i entered the gate hahas.
Don't know why when i'm with sean mor,owen or ron i will never be sad,even if i want to be i can never hahas,i like that(:
Sore eyes part two today
Lessons were not badd.
Punched Arthur untill his arm almost bleeding hahas
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARTHUR!
my boss you know.
Went home to makan after skool then went to Eldds speechday rehersal.
I was fcking tired mann whalao.
I did not even do my part properly,i dint care la just the first rehersal only.
then went with mor and zen to 761 to play ss with tors then now i'm back.
Stpid teachers stressing me like fuck.
Today scolded my nair in canteen she told me she'll make my conduct poor and call my parents or send me home,i told her to do whatevever the fuck she wanted,not my problem
If they want a fucking nerd for thair top student then i'm not goin to be their kind of student
Fuck it man.

I love my HANDBAG(:(:

Today was not badd,Went to skool on time-one of the last few to arrive;P
The guys all shouted at me at the parade square like they usually do on some mornings hahas
Need to cut hair soon.
Sleept in chem,was super tired,then PE ran 2.4 then went gym to train not badd.. i'm 50 kg! hahas
Played bingo in maths lesson and then slept in chinese again
I GOT SORE EYES!
Quite scared that its some infection or somthing hmms
Eldds till 7!
got all scenes down today good good,stupid shits that dont wanna come.nothing tosay.
Family probs..hate it man..stress in skool also,so many teachers told me that they expect alot from me...haiz..i don't like that alot.
Even ms eng from aus called and talked to me about that;P
I know i should do well but dunno why i'm so down everyday maybe i'll wake up when its june..i dont really know.
I need to talk to somone.

Why do all these problems have to come now?
No mood to study or go out or go home.
What the fuck mann.

Well here it goes.
Happy birthday to me.
Haveing survived for 17 years i've learned alot and experinced alot.You could say intermediate.
Very tired now.
Will blog about todays happenings another time.
All i can say that it was VERY bittersweet.
Go pisces people yeah?
They say in your life theres always people who love you more than you know it but i don't really think so.
All i have to say now is MY FRICKING ARMS HURT!!
Thanks to my bros and sis at TOR and owen greg for commin today and also all the other who gave me these many presents(:
Truly Gracious-
And the many others that called and messaged me to wish me.
I reflected alot today-(:
Too many things to say,arms paralysed hahas(:
Nights