HUAT AR!

LOL
Lost 10++ at mel's house haha all in good fun and also learned how to play mahjong! woo
Won once in mahjong also man not badd champion
Never completed any of my homeworks and dnt gonna die tomorrow.
My back is injured i think sprained it in soccerr or somthing damn pain when i kick the ball haiz.


Finally some weight is taken off

Thick and thin

Woots 3rd day on chinese new yrs.
Goin to Mel's house for some mahjong and gambling!
Hope i dont loose like crap.


Somthing's happenin,dunno what yet maybe i'll see soon;))

Nicer Than that

Woo A7X still rocks ballz
Saw their concert today,full of energy damn awesme!
Come to S'pore!

Ate junk food for breakfast lols french fries and hotdogs.watched tv untill 1 plus then played dota abit.
Goin gregre's house to watch a movie(finally somthing to do)
Need to save alot fo money for shoes $119 slip ons
WHEE

CNY

Happy chinese new year gong xi fa cai Wan shi ru yi,Xin nian quai le nian nian you yu

haha i unleashed all my chen yi already.

Sat:slacked like the whole day then while sleeping mor called me say wanna go play soccer,he and khai only so i anything,reeched his blk theere ard 6 plus then went to makan first,lol come up with some idea of goin clubbing lols,in the end never go sad sad,then played with some budak at the ss court then my mom called and said we goin to ma aunts houze so i left them and went home.
Today:Did nothng again,shops and everything super empty.
Went church then now slacking and watch for show to start:)()

Living in a breaking home is stressful

Question yourself. Constantly.
What is enough for you? When is it enough for you?
And when you're halfway through, or have no idea how far you've gone, ask.
Is this enough for you?

:I've lost myself;(

Dunoonu

Not badd day today.

Song now:My sacrifice-creed

Late today,stood outside and talked to some chinese gals haha nonsense.
Afeter that cheated abit and used my excuse sheet intead of taking a latecomers sheet harhar.so smartt.
Went to chem prac and did some experiments,ones that we did before last year.
After that went to class and did my english homework that was due last monday;PP
just did my work while everyone around me was doin the decors or playing games hah loner.
Did not wanna disturbing them decoring the library area even tho i'm the head of decoring it,nah no...people attitude sometimes suck,i give them an idea and they give me this face when everybody likes my idea,can you just like accept the idea or say you disagree?don't gimme your "I'm angry so i'll give you a fucking face" face pls i have no time.
So i din do any decor things and then ms eng came to sit infront of me,disturbing me the whole way mann!
So i was cheered up by her mann,wow.
then talked to her abit bit then proceeded to the hall for the concert.
It was frickin funny mann our classes(5a,5b) were noisy as hell!! but hell yeah the teachers liked it cos other classes were like super duper sianzation,stupid no life sec 4s-1s
Concert was so-so.
Out class won the drcor thingy harhar knew it:))
We all stood up like monkeys and clapped and shouted haha
After concert went to play SS
Not good,no one wanted to pass the ball to me wtf
Then Went home to take boots with zen for soccer match hah.
Played left back woo.
final score was 6-6
THEY wanted a rematch
mor and zen said i played well today;)) and that my skills improved,ball controlling:))))))
After that Like all of them suddenly shouted at me,they asked me to join the team ahaaha how to say no?
So now official player of Gangster Team
Went to makan with mor and zen after that,talking alot of craps and all that harhar
Then went homeee.

Din follow jaz they all to ms to see some shoes haha wasted;))
chinese new year commin soon,ahks..dunnoo where to go...

Oh yea Sk hope you like ur prezzie...although it was not much lahh..;))

My shins,back head,NOSE,legs hurt like hell now somone massage please..;((

XIN NIAN QUAI LE!

A Bit of this an a bit of that


i feel a little happy, a bit of sad
i feel a little lear, a bit confused
i feel a little good, a bit wierd
i feel a little loved, a bit hated
i feel a little tear, a bit of a smile
i feel a little rested, a but tired
i feel a little full, a bit empty
i feel a little bitter, a bit sour
i feel a little of this, and a bit of that
ignorance is bliss*


(I Stole this but ah,it means alot)

Bush....

Fricking tired.
Today was so-so
Quite moodless cos yesterday i screwed up totally in out match
WTF
Grieving over my chances ok?
Sad Mann sean,wore slippers to skool then got made fun off my everyone HARHAR!
Liu did some fricking lame shit actions on the starcase to immitate sean walking up and it was frigging funny mann bloody homo.
Did nothing in DNT and just slacked thru maths.
We 11 plus went to eat at the coffee shop after that laming ard there talking cock.
Then suddendly felt somthing and became fricking sian.
Went to El. or drama club..what a stupid name.
Had to be happy there if not everyone would have no mood so just went with the flow enjoying abit but was also quite angry.
Some people really have some F ed up attitudes mann.
After EL was so damn tired man,really gone..entertaining is no joke.
Waited ard in the canteen then went off(I Will remeber to bring Sk's present..i hope:)))
went home then Bush!

Tomorrow i'll have to walk on the gayshit lame new backgate...Stupid ideas of the damn skool.
Till then

Did I Do Somthing Wrong?

POM!

Super Duper Tuper Tired.........

Played in TOR versus skool team
At i first i thought...wah our team is gonna loose then i told myseld that we cannot!
I MISSED # FARKING CHANCES AT SCORING FOR TOR WTHWTFWTFWTF!!!!!!
Whlao.....sad man...perfect chances wasted...haiz...still meed to train more ah,increase my confidence
Inthe end ronald,sean,morier and DJ scored each one and we won 4-2
WOO went to celebrate in ljs with all of us makaning
Then followed owen and his firned,walked ard then headed home.
Went home and disturbed my small bor like heck,cos today's his 6th bithday wow
He got cake on his face so he cried haha sad sad
quiet part as compaired to last year but oh well:))

Finally i was happy today,Don't quite know why but i was happy today.

Okay now here things i want want want
Watch
Bag
Shoes
Tat
And last but not least
I want myself back again.

Happy day!

Chao!

Dots And Lines

Funeral for a Friend is sweet
Nice lyrics and songs,should download more songs.

Went to church today.Late.
Lcukily i saw my brother and eric so i sat with them,not badd went to makan MAC after that.
So went homee and slacked ard and got pawned my Yan Xian in DOTA sianz,but atleast i won the match haha.
After that did my ss then maybe later gonna go outt makan.
So bored...

Oh Romeo is bleeding to death.

SSS

If you loved somone so much should you tell them?
Would the fact that you wouldent wanna spoil the friendship you built not make you tell her and just suffer to se that person everyday.

today i did absoultely nothing woke up,lazed around,ate alot and then played alot of DOTA
Somtimes i just wish i could go out everyday and be busy.
School's not badd,maths is getting hell and the other subs are just boring.
I think i look stupid in my uniform my pants dont fit and my shirts dont fit,damn it.

Dunno why i cannot be serious anymore,should try to be more now.
These days are just so boring no spark left maybe just no motivation or mood for the last week and the forecast for the next week dont look so good either.
Maybe i should just enjoy life more and try to look up and not thinking about negative things.

I wish i could live in my own house now:))

STFU

Now switching to Shut The Fuck up modee
I shall not say anything anymore
Acting like a fool now
I will not anymore

I don't know what to buy...hmm vans slip on shoes or ...some shirts or T-shirts...hmm..
Or a new bag,current one is damn troublesome;PP

No mood

Hai

So i just wait for the day when i will be let go form this grip.
If the person neglects you,it eats into you,eats into your mind and soul and mostly your heart.
No calles no SMS's
Its like i dont mean anything at all
so now i think i'm cursed,now i'm a magnet for unwanted attention,these girls hearts i break.
I hurt so many people only for the one that hurts me,what a lousy deal.
Please let me free.

Went to house practice today wahaha
Played in jus's team and guess what i scored a goal!
Woohoo!
They all said nice one and all that then"Welcome to the team bro"that was bloody nice to hear mann,made more than 3 friends today and now i'm so damn exhausted.
And Hong Teck you think you cann trash me 2 times in DOTA tday?
Nvm i'll train and show you haha

Hope tomorrow will be a better day
Chao

Jade

Ah the fakeness
Somtimes i wish i can die just from that
Somtimes i just don bloody well understand people
Why do they have to see faces,colours,looks?
Quite sad to be ignored,not one of those they call to talk to,to tell their peoblems,anything..
Quite sadd
Don't ask me i dont feel like living much noww

Ps;I hit owens face today,he got a cut above his eyebrow ;))
Someone's gonna scold me for that.

I'm not happy yet,Far From it.

The Used

Never have i felt so used in the world like yesterday..
Mind you it was not in a bad way it was for the class hah
Went to ikea with jaz kina owen and naz,they were like girlies in there mann going OoO AHA,super gayness hhas but enjoyed alot::))
Bought a bigg shelf thingy for the class plus one curtain thingy 3 pillows and 2 scent thingyis hahas our class is gonna look like a bomb!
Andd hade to carry the stupid shelf which was not light mind you,carried it to chinatown then bacj to yishun,By MRT summor!,the paisehness.
While we were buying drinks at chinatown,kina took 3 drinks but asked me to put back one but i was blur at that time so i dint hear properly so in the end they only payed for 2 drinks but we had 3 haha JAZ is the super guilty shoplifter ahaha,damn funny mann!
So i drank my "Guilty Water" all the way back to yishun,on the way back there were some dicks staring at kina and jaz,so i stared at them like what the fuck mind your own buisness lol and they really did,so carried the thingy back home and gonna bring it tomorrow;))
Oh yeah jaz took my guilty water;P
Cya Lamers

HAE

Arr mayte
Back form yet another day of skool,did 2.4 in da morning.came in 5th cos of the stupid stitch
Ah nvm at least one of the first can already:)
Did alot of childish things today haha,chased that arse morier thru the skool blocks cos of his lameness,Lamed around in class
Got asked to join GanGster Team:P
dunno if i want
One malal girl asked me some wierd quesiotns in the hall,she said she wanted to stead with me,WTH?
Lol nonsense lah
after that went to el meeting,Stupid leaders
Let the drown i say but owen and the rest care too much for them,screw them laa

So unprepared for the skool mann,its like ive not gotten much of the books and all that summore i'm not paaying attention to the classes,execpt chem i understand it like hell easy hmm..not in the study mode yet.
I WANNA GO SENTOSA!
Today i saw the sun:):)
PLayed SS after el meeting then got pissed then wen home;p;P
Tomorrow's saturday
Cya freeks:)

Reflections

Looking back at 2005
All the past experiences,things done,did,gained alot form everything.I learned to be stronger and more independant,not to depend on others but to fight for myself,i gained confidence and a greater vioce.Done so much wrongs to people,some forgiven some forgotten others never talked about again,Its kind of funny,why your younger..you go into things like rock or hip hop so you follow it closely liten to only that kind of music and abolish all others but once you reach this level its age this thinking..you don't really care and everything that suits you you take in not sticking to any sterotypes,you don't really care if you

To the Girl who never Knows
You really were an impact on my life,to the point i couldent take it,and even tho i will forever remember you and you might still be there,i will remember it and thank you for everything.

To the Fuckin Retard Classmates and friends
You Homo Mofos,you guys really shined light on my seconday life and taught me some shit i really need to know or some shit i did not wanna know,you dicks made me who i am today and i will not foget,cheers to more good times ahread..

To everyone else
I thanks yall to being there:)

Cheers to 2006 and beyond:))

WOO

Wo
My new skinn
Looks quite gay but i love it okay!
Its...ok i forgot the word but it is ok
Went choc bar today
One of the best days of the start of the year
Got molested beat bitten
Nicee!
Now just gotta grow my hair back onn
Then i'll be fully happy:)
Nytes:)

After a soccer match now
Schools different.....Very
5 Ardent huh?
Oh yeah,we get to arrange our tables innna damn nice way and lessons are damn slack but tireing.
2006?
Maybe i'll have new experiences
but..
MY HAIR!!
NOT NICE
;P
Nvm it'll grow fast..
Somtimes you gotta look ugly

So its all good now
I've forgotting and i'm moving onn:)
Even tho i'm near
BYE

Wow
A year and its 2006
I;m still lagging behind i think
Lagging all the hopes feelings and fears behind

And i can see that in my openness i've grown more shy towards other people
Don't ask me;P
I'm so tired and i wanna sleep but my bro and his friends playing my ma room
Buch!
I got soccer tomorrow summore
Gonna be playing like a zombie mann
Torture!
Too paiseh to go inside there also haha
I'm shy with girls;P

Skool tomorrow
Wow
I'm still lagging
Resolution?
Somthing to do with loneliness:))