Self-styled bastard-Unholy confessions 1

Ah,just back from skool,ya its 9.30pm.
Just had a general feeling that i was very useless today,i din not do any of my english homework,not even maths,all of them are piling up on me,i cant understand maths at all.
Recess i saw somone happy and i nearly choked on my pain.
After skool went to rehersal shit,
I tell you i did not win any CCA prize as a matter of fact,i feel really betrayed that owen naz and greg won the fucking thing but i did not,all i did for this cca and in the end all i get is what?of course i'm human i'll feel cheated especially when i feel that i deserved it more than greg or naz,really do,me and owen planned last year that we both would do it together.Fuck the drama.
Another thing,I found out that i'm not top student anymore even tho i am the top student,frans is now top,i dont blame her but what the fuck?!does the principal and vp not like me or is it my fucking attitude or how i look?,i tell you i will NEVER be one of ur fucking model nerd ass students for you to show around.So thats why i felt really cheated today but well fuck it,its already happened so why do i care anymore?
Din feel like doin a proper run so i switched off my mike in my scene cos i dint feel like doin it properly,Then after that the last run i did it ok.
Din wanna complain to any teachers about that,free service right?

After that,i got the hell outta there and went to 761 and played abit of soccer.
Another thing is that money for the whole month suddenly became on 5 dollars,dunno how the hell it got that way today is only the 4th,how the hell could i possibly spend more than 50 dollars in four fricking days!somthings goin on there.Haiz

I read in somones blog that they look at the stars on their way home,and i suddenly remember that i do do that alot but i just look at the moon alot and then the stars,it seems to relax me,like the moon's sucking away all your trouble,while sitting down and having a nice drink.
Sad to say that now i find that some girls have motives to what their do to you,like if they want to just play around with you for a while or they want your money or attention or they want you to do somthing for them like you owe them the world,there are many more motives but i wont say anymore.Feel quite sick of this its like every one of them dont seem like real human beings
Traumatized*

Sumarry
-Felt cheated like fuck today
-Heart pain
-Luckily no ass pain by ron
-tired to death
-overall it was just a shitty day

Oh i joined the Hong xin gang today under liu lol we are against the other pig gang LOL
Thats it.