The Great Loser.
Yea just came back from rehersals and i found out that my skool needs my deferment letter and stuff.So i called CMPB and they said that i'm only able to defer when i'm under 18 and accepted into a fulltime course,so now that i'm 18 they said its hard to defer which i don't know what the problem is and only know that the end result is that i'd have to enter ns.
i think i won't be able to sleep tonight untill i go to CMPB tomrrow with my letter from my skool.
A part of me feels like just goin into ns and dissapearing for 2 and whatever years so i won't be a burden for my parents or anyone.Why din't the bitch poly's accept me when they bloody well accepted fuckers with 30 odd pts mann.That pisses me off till today and it will till i dunno when.
Stress i tell you,stress that makes me wanna pick up the pack again.
Ah fuck it.
I need to go to church,i need peace.i need strength.